[Respledence]

byebye

2006-03-14T19:27:00.000+08:00

i moved. dun bother looking for me.

14/2/2006

2006-02-14T18:11:00.000+08:00

i think this is the 1st time i actually celebrated Valentine's.. considering we didn't do so in sec school.. was quite fun actually, i made some sponge roses for the girls in my class and some of them made jelly or cupcakes. there were 3 kinds of jelly, n we ate them after lunch. so damn full. *puffs out cheeks* was very fun though, there's this J1 running ard acting as cupid and giving out flowers.. reminds me of Harry Potter.. >.<

this morning , something sweet happened to a girl from SR, her boyfriend, i assume, came specially to give her a bouquet, was waiting outside the gate when i walked past. He's from TJ, or TP i tink, too dark to see clearly.. haha the girl was shocked, but so sweet larr.. *jealous*. the guy is super tall. i don't like.

pe was interesting, for once.. because the school started this sports module and we get to play a sport of our choice, i chose tennis! hehe, was fun, if a bit hot.

had 5 period of GP today cus my chem teacher switched with my gp teacher.. so, 1.5 hours of lecture, followed by 1 hour of gp tutorial. was brain dead after the 1st 45 mins. and my gp teacher keep calling me because i keep falling asleep..

got 35/50 for my maths CA, not bad, but could have done better.. the teacher say the passing mark should be 50/100, not 45 because the paper was so easy..

there was this NTU talk this morning, where they talked about the courses avaliable and the criterion, psychology and sociology need A-maths O level and good GP pass respectively. the sciences courses are mostly engineering and need physics, so those are out.. those that i can take are mostly research based.. im not so sure if i should take them.. so, other than that, the admission critria is 90% academic and 10% PW, and PW need to pass, no more CCA already, unless you are really good in something..

oh, and the average lab based fee is about 20K, after subsidy, 5K. per year. can use loan though.. pay within 20 years and interest starts after graduation. non lab based is about 2K less.

my teacher said that for admission to uni:

1) AAA - can choose your course
2) AAB - can get in, with a limited choice
3) CCC - pray hard
4) CCD - go poly, no hope already.

yep. so, i need at least AAB, otherwise, i cannot go uni.

i want an NUS talk!!

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have you ever wonder what's life about? what do we do living, what do we live for? what do we do???

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Get involved in nothing, get attached to nothing, and you'll be fine..

Pride

2006-02-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

ENGLISH:

"The freedom you have is so dazzling"
Said a girl
"Even if I can't find the meaning of my existence?"
I answered

Supposing man is a creature
Who is always asking for things he doesn't have
Ah, what is it
That we truly want to have?

And then
The girl just struggled and struggled
And when she noticed she was filled with emptiness
She had a new understanding

We always open the window to tomorrow
By dreaming
Ah, though we know
Nothing is certain in this world

Flowers are surely waiting for us
In a place we haven't yet seen
Before we are used to being bored
And our time passes quickly

Even if it's the end of the world
Even if people say with laughter that we are trying in vain
Let's go together
Because nothing is so fearful as giving up

ROMAJI:

Kimi no sono jiyuu ga mabushi sugiru
To yuu shoujo ni
Sonzai suru imi sura mitsuke rare naku temo
To kotaeta

Hito ga moshi nai mono bakari o
Nedaru ikimono da to shitara
Aa bokutachi ga hontou ni hoshii
Mono wa ittai nan darou

Sorekara no shoujo wa tada hitasura ni
Mogaita ageku
Komiageru munashisa ni kizuita toki
Arata na hakken o

Bokutachi wa itsumo yume o miru
Koto de asu e no tobira hiraku
Aa kono sekai ni tashika na mono nado
Nai koto o shitte te mo

Kitto aru mada minu basho ni wa
Bokutachi o matsu hana ga
Akiru koto ni narete kasoku shite shimau
Sono mae ni

Soko ga moshi kono yo no hate demo
Hito ga muda da to waratte mo
Tomo ni ikou akirameru yori mo
Kowai koto nado nai no dakara

English & Romaji Translation by masa

'Pride' by Ayumi Hamasaki

i fell in love with this song.

hwhwhw

2006-02-02T20:18:00.000+08:00

was reading through my history, didn't realise how bitchy i sounded.. bloody hell.. shall resolve to write in proper spelling from now on. like oh my god lar, my typo was like so bad..

can't believe i was complaining so much last yr. and i sounded so hardworking. well, in Jan only lar, after that then ...

'upgraded my glasses' bloody hell...

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haiz, hwhwhw, not doing them, Common Tests next week, haven't started studying yet..

parents going to Korea on sat, next sunday then come back, just nice coincide with my CTs.. is that good or bad? hai. i'm going to have my parent's day around march, to get our results, so i cannot fail these tests.. really must get to studying..

oh ya, forgot to say, i cut my hair, so now its like short. easier to manage though, i tink..

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the tragedy of life, is not having a life worth living. that is my life.

hate.

2006-01-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

todae is nt a gdae. 3 periods gp, 4 periods bio pract. headache. then got pe summore. loooong dae. was looking forward to tmr, cus i mite b goin out wf my frends, n i was tokin to fatin abt it and planning where to go and all, thenn i find out sy n kh cannot come. hai.

my earphone spoiled. im super pissed. i wan new earphones!!!

gp essay due tmr. tons of hw for cny. im sooooo goin to fail chem.

camp

2006-01-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

im very surprised to be saying this. but this is the 1st time the camp went rather well, we practically sang the whole 2 daes. my grp tt is, the other grps werent very happy abt the camp. my grp was fun n enthu, so it made the trip fun.

we went ard sg in the 1st dae, frm marina to chinatown to woodlands. we stunk up the entire mrt. after tt, we had to go to changi village to take the ferry to Ubin. then, we had to walk to the opposite of the island to our campsite. which is near the npcc new campsite. we went to tt beach(our campsite) before. then we had dinner, after setting up our tent. the dinner was those army packaged thingys, the noodles/pasta were ok, but if u get the rice, dump it and share. it is disgusting. and we also found out that its better if we dun look at what we are eating. cus they look like maggots, even if they taste ok.

after which, we went for our nite walk. around Ubin. beats our sch anedae. very scary, even though i didn finish the trip.

then we had our 'bath' as the water there is limited, we had to use wet tissue to shower and powder ourselves after. surprisingly, it was ok. but i pity the army boys aneway. eck. my hair is extremely disgusting. we could not wash or powder it, so we had to leave it sweaty n stinky. it still stink after i washed it. eurghh.

the nxt dae was relaxed though, we sang the throughout the entire road to the ferry terminal and there was a bus to take us to Sentosa, then we took the bus in Sentosa to Silso(nt sure the spelling) beach, we were suppose to go to other places, but the facilitator said we could stay there if we wanted. so we finished the activities and bought ice cold soft drinks. or i did, the rest bought ice cream or coffee. very nice. haha.

so we returned to the ferry terminal and had our lunch, then we played some games, like Black Magic and fuzzy wuzzy. very fun and interesting.

after which we returned to sch, and while we were supposed to clean the tents, it rained, so we had to reluctuntly return to the hall. the weather was very nice to us. no rain while we were out, and raining to save us frm the tents. haha

it was interesting and educational, taught us quite a lot. but its harder to make us apply it. hopefully these lessons will stay wf me.

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my feet n hands are sore.

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Quizzy

2006-01-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

You scored as Psychology. You should be a Psychology major!

Psychology

92%

Biology

83%

Sociology

58%

Anthropology

50%

Chemistry

50%

Mathematics

42%

Engineering

42%

Philosophy

25%

English

17%

Journalism

Art

Linguistics

Dance

Theater

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yay!!

aneone haf the new career book? i wanna read..

goin for camp on thur n fri, goin for SP opening dae, goin shopping on Sun. + tons of hw. = me dead.

sux

2006-01-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

its so rainy. sucky sucky sucky.

i tink i forgot to tell u guys, but my principal organised a camp, in the middle of the month which has alot of holidaes and test. 2 daes, one nite. no water(though i think tts nt needed now, considering how wet it is) -they wanted us to bring powder for powder bath- even ATC wasn to bad. at least they have a proper flow of water supply. and its a sch wide event. = 300 over pple goin to pulau ubin. i tink the trip there n bck would take half of the dae. [1 boat=12 pple] its a stupid event. i'll rather do review or sumtink.

my sis's npcc is kool. she get to do stunts wf the rifle ar, and wear kool glasses, performing. and the rifle this arent drils, its realli stunts, like throw n pull bck and twrill it kinda stunts. only 2 gurls chosen, and she one of them. darn kool lar. sooo jealous. oh, her teacher wans her to be prefect also.

had a horrible dream this morning. dreamt tt we were poor, and went into this castle like place, where the snow queen lives. becus we folowed these very sick looking chickens and wanted to eat them. then the scene skipped, and we were hunting the castle for my sister. then i found her in this creepy cupboard, where she was hiding behind alot of junk. and somehow i knew she was there, but she was scared, so i asked her for the code, and she stuck out her arm for a piece of paper and wrote a peace sign. =.=

here's the horrible part, then we jumped out of a window and my mom has this crazed look, then on eof her eyes turned white, like cat slits? but juz the black slit is there, then theres this milky look to it, then she told me we hafta get revenge, she wans to get revenge, then i was pleading with her cus, i had a deju vu that if she went, then she would die, then i was like holdin gon to her and stuff. in the end, she didn go, and we jumped out and ran away with the jewels we found. then there's this henchman, hu was in charge of giving the chickens the food, started to give us the feed and we grew very skinny and bony and theres this vulture circling over us and - i woke up

very creepy, then my hands n feet were like freezing and stuff, couldn feel them.. though tt could be the cold in the morning.. haiz, creepy dream.. i dun dream much, but when i do, i get these kinda creepy dreams.. y cant i juz dream of getting As or eating a ice cream?? =.=

ohoh, i juz discovered msger plus, very kool, u can send sounds to the otherside and stuff, then if ur stats is busy, u can haf this auto answering msg thing, darn kool. haha

As

2006-01-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

jc 2 life sux. consistant consistant consistant. tts wad the teacher saes. all of them. therefore, i am determined to get my AAB...

tt sounded fake.

schsux.

1) tutorial no understand
2) new teachers very... pressuring
3) hw everydae. i wanted sat after tue. which is the 1st dae of sch
4) my mom keep giving me wrk to do. like, i haf sch?? wtf. sch wrk nt enuf u wanna gif me summore, and thenn u dun gif me during holidaes. argh.

i want my freaking As.

handwriting crap

2005-12-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

ok.. its so crap lah, i tot wad.. its based more on the questions than the handwriting itself..

i so should be out studying..

drifting

2005-11-26T17:50:00.000+08:00

drifting. drifting. drifting. my life, your life drifting apart, doesn't anyone else feel it? lonely, aimless, drifting. The bridge between us is failing. I cannot get across, I cannot pass. I can't built a new one. I am alone.

I don't wanna feel
anything today
I don't wanna feel
anything today
Anything at all and just be alone
I just wanna know that you
wanna know

I don't wanna live trough
another day
I don't wanna live through
another day
Meaningless to fight for
the victory
I just wanna dive in the
heart of misery

One love
One life
Locked me in the
heart of misery
One loss
One fight
locked me in the
heart of misery

I will never be anything again
I will never be anything again
I'm tired to give,
I don't wanna try
I'm afraid to live
I just wanna fly,
throw it all away
I just wanna fly,
throw it all away
Meaningless to fight for
your sympathy
I just wanna drown in the
heart of misery

One man forgot to breathe
One heart refused to beat
One loss

Heart Of Misery by The Rasmus
Hide From The Sun

hi

2005-11-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

ok, tong xin lian is officially irritating me. mei ren yu, mei ren yu! ack. as if the show nt enuf, my parents haf taken to imitating them. arggggg.

counted my savings todae, haf abt 100, which i didn deposit 4 2 yrs mind u, n even so, i should haf at least 200 in a yr. ack. tts it. im eating one dollar meals frm now on.

blew abt 70 over on pressies. n im nt even done yet. tink my mom would get her money bck nxt yr.

dreamt tt my relatives gave me money for christmas. $100. wonderful dream no? then they said its to share btw the three of us. total nightmare.

wishlist:
rollerblades
new bag which is big enuf to carry my notes w/o crumpling it.
new computer, wf dvd/cd rewritable drive, or wadever its called. or a laptop. either is fine.

i think i shall start saving for a laptop.

i tink im goin to tm tmr. need get job. or go shopping. which ever.

gof

2005-11-24T15:28:00.001+08:00

since u all haf watched it, i shall 'evaluate' gof now, dun read if haven watch.

firstly, i would like to sae its a bit disappointing, the director didn realli grasp the essence of the book. n their Dumbledore suck. i wan the old one back. hopefully they chg him the nxt movie.. cant c this one doin the 5/6th bk. hate his hair too. n he is bloody short, no sense of DUMBLEDORE like the one jk portrayed. their Snape also.. nt evil enuf. and Voldermort. i tink his makeup is well done, the image of wad i c portrayed in the book, but the canon!Voldermort has cat slit eyes and they are red. nt blue. or normal in any sense. the reborn part is nt smooth, quoting frm the book would be nicer, but when Voldermort came out was nice, the slimy look and the foggy clothes. love his clothes. but his too short. or Wormtail too tall... Wormtail. ack, he juz chopped off his hand how can juz walk ard like tt??? wheres the whimpering, the begging, the tears, and the crawling on the ground??? n u noe when Voldermort stood in front of Harry to touch his head? i was like, kick him! kick him! cus he's nt tied up c. arggggggggggg.

oh. n the maze. where are the spider and the sphinx?!?!? n the hedges r so narrow, i feel constricted juz watching. though tt is prob their intention.. i think the 1st task is the best. though the flying ard the castle n the dragon dying bit is overdone. but the part in the arena was nice. i was like nooo then phew, didn get him. n since when did his Firebolt get burnt. didn like tt part. or the celebration part. "do you want me to open it? yes! do you want me to open it? YES!" wah lao.

and the lake, a bit too fast, but the part where Harry pushes Ron n Gabrielle up and fighting the grindylows was nice. new, and quite well done. i think Daniel does the adventure scenes the best. the part where Harry found Crouch? like wad the hell?? nv sae the importance... n the part where Moody blasted the ceiling - ??? - nt to mention, the Great Hall doesn look Great at all. the dark mark doesn look forbidding either. n the Quiddich World Cup. at least haf a bit lah, like ...

oh ya, i forgot, the grief scene. er. the throwing himself over Cedric is wayyyy overdone. as if he got the energy like tt. but the wailing is convincing, if a bit too fake. Harry, in the book, never cried like tt, cant see him doin tt too, wf his kind of childhood. but i can see the reasoning behind it. it wasn very prominent in the book though.. hehe, i like the part where Harry gave this 'see, it wasn't me' look to Snape behind Dumbledore when they found out about the Polyjuice.

ok end rant.

u noe wad. forget it, dun wanna watch it again.

lets all pray my comp is beyond repair. then mb i can get a new one.

i can make quite nice roses now. tink i can make it in time for christmas. i got pc's pressy too. still have rubez, osha, fatin, soon ying, bro, father. osha, fatin, father planned. need go tm n pp to get them.. sy, rubez n bro dunno wad to gif..

hey kh? when u free? i pass u the cds.

comp crasshed

2005-11-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

my comp crashed. ok. mb nt crash crash , but it wont on!!!! like bloody hell.. comp is my life lor. then haiz... using my mom's comp now, so ya, dun be surprised if u dun c me online anemore.

aneone looking 4 work? im tinking of goin to gv tamp to do ushering and cleanin. but i dun tink they will take me though.. but wad the hell, shall go try.

my mom mite buy a new one. but she damn happy the comp spoil. cus i wont be using it. ack. tons of hw. i haf to do grammar exercises online n print it out 4 gp, a bk reiew anddd 4 essay outline. tts juz gp. chem, juz fin tut todae, so none yet, bio, lessa c. the sumtink sumtink erm sumtink, and the ecology, evolution tuts, which they haven fin yet. so by nxt mth, im goin to haf a whole lot of work to do. as opposed to now ah. maths also, got w/s. ok. i dunno y im complaining, other than gp n bio, i dun haf anemore hw. but stil, gp is goin to take ages to do.

fact of life: some genetic traits are dependent on your sex.

$$$

2005-11-20T10:18:00.000+08:00

im spending at these daes. n im nt even working.. but wad to do, owe pple alot of pressys. so lessa c:

me: 2 necklaces, 2 Artermis Fowl bk, 4 Wild Adapter, some hair bands, i tink tts all.. all together, abt $80? n im nt working!!! oh ya, forgot, 2 cds. Nickelback and The Rasmus, the new album which came out this year. dun ask me y i bought it. im gon nuts. so tt $120. in 2 wks. n im nt working.

Pressy(bought):
kh, sis, mom(suppose to make flowers, but i dunno how)

Pressy(haven bought but planned):
osha, fatin, peici.

Pressy(dunno wad to gif):
bro, father, sy, rubez(did u gif u ane this yr? i dun rmb..)

i tink tts all, did i miss aneone.. oh, n a warning, if u dun like jewellery, tell me now, cus its all either necklaces or er.. jewellery. heh. i dun plan to surprise u aneway so ya.

if my mom sees my acct this year im dead.

n kh, i still cant c ur taggy. i mean the entire box, like, no links n all..

no life

2005-11-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

i seriously haf no life. i go sch, haf cca, come hme, sit in front of comp, watch tv, eat, sleep. tts my dae. i dun study, i dun read, i dun work, i dun do anetink. its no wonder im so tired everyday. ack. someone tell me what am i suppose to do to get a freaking life. other than getting a job. cus i dun tink aneone wans sumone hus is still goin to sch and having cca. ahhh, if only theres a job i can do in my own time. like handiwork or sumtink. eurgh.

i need to read the news. do my hw too. oh ya. hw. gah.

I have no life.

time long..

2005-11-13T10:46:00.000+08:00

been ages since i updated. shall crap n cover those pic underneath, Tom Felton doesn go wf this bckgrd. haha. aneway, update on my family, my sis doesn noe how to fall out/in and i dunno how to teach her. PC, wanna help? =D my mom sprained her ankle i tink abt a wk ago and recovered pretty quickly. went to A&E wf her and read 3 mags on GOF and watched a bit of Matrix Reload. dun realli understand it, the staff keep chasing me n my bro out, irritating. had to stand outside the waiting rm n look in like goldfishes..

my bro is lvl 45+ in maple now, n im only 28. cant seem to haf the patience to get to 30 n use all my hard earned clothes. so i started a new one. a thief in Bootes, which got to lvl 17 from lvl 9 after 2 daes. quite fun. had a fight wf a super childish 12 yr old at slime tree. dunno y i bothered..

ah. so how did i do in OP? well, i would sae we did ok, even though i keep looking at my script. but i dun tink its my fault, we juz chged it the dae b4. im lucky i even rmb the sequence.. and i tink our ppt slides are the nicest in the 3 grps in my classrm. very little pic, but tts cus my ST said tt we hafta refer to wadever pic we put up. so we deleted all my nice pics. then the other grps haf sooooo many pics, and so little words. ack.

sch tmr and the dae after. bio , then dunno wad on tue. dunno when we pass up our GPF also, ST nv sae anetink.. wan it over wf!! juz recieved alkanes tut and tons of maths hw. my table's a mess n i dunno where did they get to.. the new bio notes looks like maths formulaes. ahhhhh!!!!!!!! i hate DNA.

bought Arthemis Fowl. completed aready. Wild Adapter also, its a gay bk. i swear. pot 28 n 29 wf me. sd 27 to 29 also and 30 coming out in the 15. this is 4 bez btw.i wan the cross necklace!!!!! shall go tm one of these daes.

sooo, didn get to go lido to watch GoF dunno when can i go n watch.. haiz. didn noe if i should go w/o the us. would feel sooo awkard.

should go find a job soon, but i dunno how to juggle sch which is at all odd times and cca, which is quite alot cus of the competition on the 5/6th dec. hope i dun make a fool of myself. haiz, mb i should work nites. if only i can bring work hme.

i tink i haf a ear infection. theres sumtink in my ear. haiz. nt to mention my ear is still bleeding, cus of the earring. haiz. even pure silver doesn help.

latee

2005-10-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

been ages since i updated.. ah well, results for promo, B 4 bio, AO 4 chem, E 4 maths, E8 4 gp i tink, and C6 4 chi. cheer 4 me!!! the sch sae until the A lvl chi results nxt yr is out, we can dun study chi if we get at least C6 which i did!!!! YAYAYAYAYA!!!!!!!!!! haha. small victory though. haiz. cant believe i made so much mistakes in bio, like, i totally forgot that collagen is a protein. like WTH!!!tons of STUPID mistake. i got 8.5 for an enzyme question. like (!!!). wad an idiot. gr... got 19 4 gp essay (dun ask me how. i dunno also.) and 22 for compre. the AQ n summary killed me 2/8 n 2/9. the rest almost full marks. haiz.. hate gp.

aneway, i noe i got D 4 maths overall, passed gp overall, n bio of course. tink i failed chi and if im lucky, AO 4 chem. but either way, i haf 2 As, so its ok, confirm promoted.

OP rehearsal nxt mon. n i haven started my speech yet. not to mention my InR. thenn, i haf chi A end of this mth. haven started yet. should i even bother? gah.

now lets look at some GoF pics!!! (stole them frm sumone as icons. hehe.)

horrible hair. eurgh. so fluffy..

is he cuter?? haha, i dunno, anetink ah, he's getting better at acting though.

guess what scene is this? hint: "Harry Potter"

uncomfortable?

didn think so.

Cho. she not tt pretty wad..

Before.

After. ( she so pretty!!!!!)

more: http://www.livejournal.com/users/gsd82/1023.html#cutid1

listening to tong xin yuan, or tong xin lian. juz realised how irritating n brainless the series is. irritating.

i wan skates. the ones i haf r too slow.... then i wanna learn how to turn. i cant seem to do tt properly.

Maple things i wan. emerald marker gloves, Ryden (a bow) , green hunteress pants and blouse. get to lvl 30

Real life things i wan: Arthemis bk 1 n 3, Wild Adapter, Saiyuki Reload the series (kh d/ling 4 me *muacks* hehe, thx!!!), trip 4 GoF movie. skates. Saiyuki the Manga.

can we meet again?? plsssss, im realli sori 4 skipping the last meeting, was lazy.. make an outing of the movie? when it coming out again? Nov 3rd is it?

all in all, gd luck 4 chi n OP pple, n happy holidaes!! (btw, i hafta go bck to sch 4 lessons during Nov. haizzzz)

saiyuki vs harry potter

2005-09-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

i juz realised that saiyuki n harry potter have a common plot. u noe when Dumbledore froze Harry to 'protect' him? i juz realised the same thing happened in Saiyuki also, where Koumyo, Kouryo's teacher (now called Sanzo) froze him to protect him frm demons. talk abt cliche.. i fail to c how freezing them help to protect them..

n yes. i noe. supposed to be studyin. but wth..

friends

2005-09-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

"He took me out of the darkness and showed me a world much brighter then the Sun..." -Goku

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i'm beginning to think that i have friends only because of Osha.. i'm not getting along with my classmates.. i mean, i talk to them and all but they aren't like kh or sy or any of my other friends. i think i get along better with tiff then with them, and i don't even like tiff much.

i tink i gave them the wrong impression.

come to think of it, i met all my friends thru Osha....kh, sy, fatin, farah. i still remember running down the corridor and Osha asked farah if she supported Harry/Hermione or Harry/Ginny. haha, n i won, but she said that Karfu took my stand just to spite her, so not counted. haha.

im not happy in this school. i don't know why. is it just me? i think so. i can't seem to talk to anyone in the class, and feel constantly rejected. i don't think they did it on purpose, but still.. i hope this isn't going to be happening every time i go somewhere new..

i hate this school. i hate the uniform, the food, the teachers, the subjects, the people. i hate being unadaptable. am i so easy to ignore? so i talk softly? fuck. u can't expect me to shout out whenever i want to join in. frankly, i don't know why am i so bothered, i don't talk much in the first place. but i think i can guess.. i don't volunteer information. Osha, and my this other classmate ask my opinion, so i feel better hanging with them, at least they include me. the rest of my class however seem to stick their opinion whenever and whatever, its like they talk when its their turn. u can see the topic going round the table, each giving their opinion or experience. i don't do that, probably cus whenever i tried they just ignored it or dismissed it. is it cus i talk too softly or wadever i talk about is difficult to continue? i need a course on how to carry a conversation. maybe fatin can teach me..

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"Come and go. Leave your imprint on nothing and nothing will leave its imprint on you. I do not need anyone; I do not want anyone to need me. I am not a lifeline. I disavow all responsibility to anyone or anything. Don't turn to me for help. Don't turn to me for support. I help no one but myself. I have my own wars to wage.

Get involved in nothing, get attached to nothing, and you'll be fine.." -Genjo Sanzo

Can I be this way?

finally

2005-09-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

eom done, wr done, only InR and OP now.. finally man. haiz.. i hate the bio teacher hu was preggy. totally boring, and standard totally high, now she told us tt the paper is very very difficult, so better study hard. i hope she is bluffing, i m relying on bio 4 a pass. maths need to study vectors, trigo and diff. teacher sae impt. but since im skipping trigo and apgp, i'll study hard 4 binomial, 3D and graph. ya.. shuld be ok.. i hope............

SHIT

2005-09-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

suppose to be doin wr now, its finishing soon, juz need sum touching uo, then er hafta do the op n inr draft BY NEXT WK. smart no? specially when promos is like the wk after nxt.

a piece of gd news. of which i think e mj pple will turn green wf envy. haha, turns out propos is 50%, and the other half is frm various scattered test n ca. i tink my teacher was very very leinent and gave us quite high marks 4 the orals presentations. n i jux realised the sch's 'devious' scheme of making us more used to ops by incorporating them into lessons. smart them. and nxt yr, 4 e new batch, GP will be = to PW. so the 2nd yr will be more gp taking over pw. n where was i.. oh ya, e gd news, turns out i need 37 to pass my maths. n my teacher sae tt e paper will be easy. if only to make sure we promote. oh. n 87 to get A. a tad impossible, but i shall try. i shall not study chem n do maths 4 the whole wk nxt wk. oh god. 1 wk. 1 wk. 1 wk. fuck. tts like 7 daes. fuck. oh god.. n i haven started studying yet!!! ohgodohgodohgod. shit. SHIT. n i haf pw, n wr, n bio, n chem, n tuts, and. oh god. i had better fin my wr by todae and OH SHIT bio SPA nxt wk. SHIT. AHHHHHHHHHH. shit shit shit. ok. ok. tuts tmr, maths formula list tmr. spa sun. maths practice. ok. shall do WR now. shit.

[edit] i hate my pw mates. they dun do their wrk and my STUPID leader, keeps pushing the duties i asked him to do nicely to my other grp mates. like fuck him ah. dun haf phy text go lib then. shit him. then the HIM is like argggg. so far the only one hu does her work is my wr partner. god. i hate pw. if i dun get an A 4 this im goin to strangle sumone. preferably my irresponsible leader. i hate boys. specially pathetic ones hu shrink their duties. grrrrr.

im sooo dead

2005-09-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

tons of hw, im so screwed. promos ard the corner, im so dead. freak. i cant seem to be able to concentrate. i dun understand it. i haf 2 wks left b4 promos, n i haven started revising. i dun understand trigo, i cant rmb formulas. i dun haf the time to do practise papers. i fail to c how m i goin to pass this yr. fuck.

i nv believed trying to study when i cant concentrate. i mean, wads the point rite? if u spend the time and nutink gets into ur head. but now im beginning to think tt i mite hafta, cus i cant seem to get anetink done. suppose to do past maths tut. cant even fin the practice papers. suppose to revise bio LAST wk. didn even fin covering enzymes. supposed to fin chem revision this wk. tons of Q left frm practice papers. GP paper due last thur. still not done. FUCK. n i need a new vocab, cant seem to be able to do MJ's paper. to the meridians out there, gd luck, n im nv gladder to be kicked out of there, even if im not faring much better here..

i wanna run, get away frm here. i wanna hide, i don't wan to face reality, the 'real' world. i wanna juz jump off a building. what m i here 4 aneway, i c no purpose 4 me living. im useless. a waste of space. well. actually, i dun know what is the world 4, a plaything 4 God? what do we live for? a place in heaven?

i need to stop reading fanfiction. its screwing wf my brain.

mb i shuld go be a social worker. mb i can find my life helping others. mb.. if im not so impatient tt i will prob convince the person to kill him or her self first. not a teacher either. scientist? no creativity. doctor? i hate precision. psychologist? mb.. but NUS dun seem to be proficient in it. i dun noe where to go after this. seriously.

rant

2005-08-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

[rant pls skip.]

my brother suck, WR suck, my printer suck, my comp suck.my comp keeps disconnecting, my printer keeps printing blank pages, my WR is not moving tiself, and my brother keeps playing his bloody games n wont even print a bloody document 4 me.i reafirm my stand that all guys are assholes. bloody sadistic, egostical, irresponsible, irritating, assholic, selfish bastards. i dun care if im scolding my mother with him.
i hate my sch. they r the ones hu came up with this stupid, idiotic, brainless i- learn thing. independent learning my FOOT. like we so free ah, hardly enuf time to keep up wf my work aready still muz 'independent learning' in the end, they juz wanna drop sum of their work. if, i fail becus of this stupid ilearn thing, i'll sue the bloody sch till im bankrupt. then i'll kill myself inthe sch and haunt it 4 the rest of my bloody death! god, shitty hell. 'pls try not to come to sch tmr' LIKE I WANT TO! god damn it.i hate my brother. i want my own laptop.and printer. n even if it kills me m goin to learn how does computer WORKS. piece of shit.stupid. idiotic. sadistic. assholic. i need a wider vocab.i need a life. im online everydae, tons of tests r cuming up, im goin to get retained if this keeps up. i can hardly keep up wf sch work, im failing everything, i dun understand photosynthesis, i need tuition. fuck. i hate jc, wad the bloody hell am i doin. im not studying, im not working, i want my friends, i wan my sch, i hate my sch. the AV suck, the ideas sux. PW suck big time.i want a punching bag, i wanna join a boxing club. i need to hurt sumbody. im a sick bitch. and a selfish one. i dun even haf the guts to hurt myself. though i fail to c the pt.. i hate life. i dont know the bloody reason y im here. god will show me the way indeed.

[rant done]

dream: i wan my own penthse, my own comp wf broadband internet, radio, tv wf cable, my entire collection of mangas and animes. i wan to actually buy them instead of burning or d/ling them. i want my own punching bag. i want a water bed.

the thing is, i cant get all these until i get a fuckin degree and a job. bof of which r all the way at the otherside of the grand canyon.

freaking hell, my eng is dropping, my chi is dropping, bio is getting harder, chem is hopeless, maths is a gonner. im failing and im still here, what the FUCKING hell is bloody wrong with me!

hafta go bck to sch tmr cus of 'technical' failure. i need a comp expert in my hse.

fucking sch. i wan tkgs.

barfdae

2005-08-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

had a rather quiet barfdae todae. woke up quite unhappy to sae the truth. - at the risk of sounding egostic - i expected quite a large no. of birthdae wishes, but it turns out only osha msged me. how sad... but nvm, we still had a fun time at e beach.

then the surprises came, farah n nuraini msged wishes n weeling said happy birthdae via friendster also. was totally surprised n happy, haha, nv tot that pple im not close to wuld still rmb my birthdae, specially weeling, how. weird.. hmm.. wonders if farah n nuraini were together when they msged me, cus they came one after the other.. weird.. but pleasing all the same, haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI CI!!!

and thanks to those hu wished me a happy birthday!

on the otherhand, im in deeeep trouble. yup, u guessed it, tonsss of hw. i knew i shuld haf done them sooner, but noooo * i haf tmr, i haf tmr..* voila! pile of hw appears.

HW:

Gp: journal, oral

chi: oral

maths: all tuts + study 4 test ( trigo. get ready to get egg)

chem: revision

bio: photosynthesis tut (i nv tot i wuld haf a topic i hated..), revision

PW: WR. suppose to be in charge. nv do anetink. survey evaluation. comp spoiled, not my fault..

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i hate jc. need to reafirm tt.

sat

2005-08-07T14:12:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was funnn. we made it to east coast at 2, but the fire wasn able to start till 3 plus. hopefully u all didn stay hungry 4 long.. the entrie day was fun fun fun. though its a bit hard to include everyone.. n i tink i was busy wf the fire.. but, doesn matter, they entertained themselves. haha.

i tink the funnest part was when we went to the breakwaters to juz sit n take fotos. then we saw the fireworks too, my bro managed to take a few photos of them. then we went to get sum food after osha came bck frm sending sy off. so sorri!! the pit was one of the 2 left n it was the nearest aready. got the radio, the macaroni, a torch n sum drinks. then we sat ard the food like cult meeting. haha. then of course, the roaches came running n ya. i tink u can imagine it. soo, we went to the stone table near the breakwater n juz toked, whilst avoiding flowers in our mouth. was fun. then we had sum ckae, in which my family was playing the number game to c hu eats the last piece, n osha snatched it up. haha, rubbish bin of our squad.

i tink tts abt it.. i liked the part where we were toking abt how the breakwater would be a bad spot if sumone were to propose there.

1st case scenario: the gurl scream n drop the ring into the sea n the guy tinks its cus of him.

2nd case scenario: the guy scream n drops the ring.

3rd case scenario: both scream n ran the wrong way frm the roaches n into the water. ring remains on the breakwater.

haha, i made up the last one btw.

fun fun fun.

pics:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v711/flaredence/P1020662.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v711/flaredence/P1020752.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v711/flaredence/P1020751.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v711/flaredence/P1020749.jpg

ditto

2005-08-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

ok, so pple hu need to confirm. fatin, indah, kai, rubez. is tt all?

btw, my mom quite mad at me now, so cannot stay online too long.. ane Q pls msg me, n pls tell me wad u all wanna bring this sat, later everyone bring marshmellow then tts not gd.. oh, n aneone hu wan to swim.

im bring cards, er. can sumone bring frisbee? i dun haf. oh. n those toys if u wanna play sandcastle. haha.

i tink tts all.

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i haf compre test tmr. crap. i hate application. as if essay not enuf.

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i wanna watch FMA!!!!!!! the movie i mean. *sob*

bbq on sat

2005-08-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

ok. abt this sat.

its at pit 68, ard PA east coast sea sports club which is near sparkc@ marine parade adventure training centre, which is sumwhere near laguna national golf course.

if u wan the map, go www.streetdirectory.com.sg, type under building: PA east coast sea sports club the u go enlarge the map n wadever to check where it is. the pit's in the vicility (sp?, pls correct me) of it.

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no need to bring food, juz marshmellows and soft drinks, only mineral water provided. *warning: pls bring a lot. i dun want plain water!!* haha. ice provided, freezing in fridge now.

err, if u haf ane of those things to poke in the fire (for the marshmellows) pls bring. i dun tink i haf a lot. or do u use satay sticks? ok, nvm. err oh. bring games, frisbee, cards. can go swimming also. we bringing a tent for u to chg if u wan. er. wan else..

ya. time, ard lunch time, 12 - 1, not sure yet, u all can come my hse, my mom sae can bring u all there, or if u wan can cycle, though i dun tink u better, its quite far.. wad else wad else..

btw, can stay till late, i haf family dinner later, but u all can stay, actually, i wuld prefer if u stayed *hint hint* haha.

frankly, i dun think we will study at all, so lets try to fin hws on fri nite kk? or, we culd juz do it nxt wk.. its hoildae after all.. ok.. wad elsee...

[sumhow i haf this feeling that my marshmellow is spelled wrongly..]

oh ya, no pressies needed, if u insist, bring root beer, they quite ex. or bring chips n other things.

list of food goin to be brought: (not confirmed though)

1) stingray
2) crab
3) chicken wing
4) prawns
5) otah ( fish n prawn flavour if im not wrong)
6) fried bee hoon
7) curry
8) mineral water

i tink tts all, feel free to bring anethink else u wanna eat.

btw, u guys its goin to start late, the fire i mean, so i tink u better eat sumtink b4 u go, otherwise u'll stave to death. i dun tink the bee hoon is halah either. n it mite be juz 4 dinner, im not sure..

anetink else pls ask soon. hafta finalise aready

list of hus coming: ( pls confirm)
kh, osha, sy, kai, pc,

still tinking:
rubez, fatin, indah?

did i miss aneone?

i tink tts all..

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i juz found out tt my exam's 2 wks after the sept holidaes. n no, im not goin to do a countdown. but i had better start studying. haven touched trigo at all... cant wait 4 holidaesss

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my internet sux.

my dinner times r getting later n later..

lunch

2005-08-01T19:42:00.000+08:00

my cousin booked a barbacue pit at east coast this sat, its free frm 12 pm onwards, it's pit 68. dunno where that is, but aneone interested? its suppose to be 4 my birthdae, btw. juz wondering if u guys r interested, if not then i'll tell my cousin to cancel it or sumtink.. n dun need to bring food or anetink, my mom buying. frankly, i want to chg it into a study session, i haf tons of stuff to do.. im soooo gunna fail my eoy. n i hate eom. hate hate hate. n trigo too.

erm. pass the words ard, if a more than er.. i dunno, 8? coming, then i'll set it up or sumtink. pls reply on taggy. ask kh n indah n fatin they all pls. i tink i'll call fatin, ask the rest 4 me hor, the mj pple.

oh. n im having family dinner after that, so i'll stay there the whole dae.

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im worried abt my mom, she has tons of sickness, n my dad also, diabetes and all. haiz..

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P.S. aneone noe where pit 68 is? cus i don't..

dumb

2005-07-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

i had pe in the botanic gardens todae. was totally stupid.

missed my frends a lot todae. a lot a lot. n most of the time i feel like i'm the only one in the world hu holds on to their frends so tightly.

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pw: eom, pi, research

gp:read notes

bio: photosynthesis tut, spa, respiration test

chem: chem bonding tut, kinetic tut, equilibrium tut, bonding test

maths: trigo test, trigo 1, 2 tut, small approx tut, 3d trigo tut.

chi: du hou gan oral presentation.

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wishlist:

saiyuki reload anime

hp bk 7

artemis fowl

artemis fowl - the eternity code

artemis fowl files

prince of tennis manga 28

a life

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"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

1S19

2005-07-25T18:12:00.000+08:00

http://hannahkiki.multiply.com/photos/album/1

tts where the rest of the pics are, the webbie i mean.

n tatatata, 1S19! my class btw.

tell me wad u tink of them. n abt the guys. i wanna c how u all interpret them.

**waits for my taggy to be flooded**. *or at least hope so*

need pouch 4 ipod, n backback bag 4 my shoulder. it hurts...

weird

2005-07-24T14:08:00.000+08:00

ok. sumtink weird happened to me yesterdae. apparently, i haf an 'admirer'. im like, okk... n rite... sumhow i tink she's playing a joke on me or sumtink.. aneway, its distrubing, n i dunno how the hell osha handles it. weird + irritating.

haha, aneway, most of bio done, n im not doin the remaining stuff. feel kinda happy tt i culd do trigo even when i haven studied it yet. haha, memorise memorise.

parent's dae didn go too well. mom was irritated tt she had to wait one hr 4 her turn n my teacher didn realli sae anetink nice abt me. she also kinda bias? she was like ' there's an A! isn tt nice. ' and ' he/she didn do too well, its badly done ' n there r more of the latter than the former. gah. n my mom said she goin to cut off the internet. dun tink she will, but i better lay off it 4 a while.. not tt it matters though, given tt the wireless thing is totally faulty. keeps d/cing. damn irritating.

hafta do analysis of survey n EOM. haizz....

need do wrk now.

almost got the entire post deleted. i tink i like the 'recover post' function, pheww...

inferno

2005-07-22T19:34:00.000+08:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

this is kinda dumb, considering i dun even believe in hell.. y did i do this in the 1st place?.. gah.

neeky

2005-07-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

im bored, n i haf tons of hw. plus. 4 the 1st time ever, i dun understand bio. crap man, im sooo dead. i need more hrs a dae. or juz my comp to crash... touch wood. haha

need list.

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HW:

bio: respiration tut, photosynthesis notes

chem: kinetics tut, bonding tut, notes. [i sense a headache]

maths: trigo 1, 2 n every other tut. [its amazing i passed maths...]

chi: online survey [shall do later], du huo gan..tts all..

gp: journal [shall do later]

pw: research, EOM, GWF, survey evaluation. [im so dead..]

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u noe i dun c the pt of havin a list. doesn help me, im still here arent i? gah.

took sum class fotos yesterdae, shall show u all my class.

parents dae on sat.. hopefully it wont turn into a screamin session...

i hate jc. n trigo.

HBP

2005-07-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

i had tons to sae when i finished HBP at 12 last nite, but as it was in the middle of the nite and i haf sch todae..

ok. erm. i dunno if i shuld sae much here, spoilers n all, so if u dun wan to know anetink, skip this lot.

[ major spoilers]

i take bck ane bad thing i said abt Dumbledore. he's great, makes mistakes, but still great. the funeral was beautiful, and incredible sad, i cried through the whole thing. the Ministry is as useless as ever. i seriously dunno how is she goin to finish the series in one more bk. either she rush thru the whole thing, or Voldermort wins. those hoping 4 Harry/Hermione have no hope. turns out Malfoy wasn so bad after all, he couldn kill Dumbledore at ane rate. i tink R.A.B is Regulus Black. m glad Harry finally grew up. the 7th bk should be nice. kinda sad Harry doesn plan to go bck to Hogwarts, but he mite chg his mind.. doubt it though. [relationship spoilers] sumhow i wasn realli surprised Tonks ended up wf Remus. m glad Fleur and Bill r still as lovey dovey as ever. Bill was fine btw, he got disfigured, but the werewolf hu got him wasn transformed that nite. Snape has no hope of returning into my gd bks. Voldermort's right hand man through and through. Apparation is painful.

[end spoilers]

sad bk, and not my fav. a bit boring, but tons of Riddle bckgrd. (is tt a spoiler?)

tons of hw.

the noah thing wasn a movie after all, more like a documentary. nice, but a bit messy, not smooth at all. almost convinced me that noah did exist. apparently tons of other religions also haf records of a flood, they found fossilised sea shells up on a mountain. tt convinced me. its solid proof. tt there was a flood, not the noah thing.

then there was one pt where they tot they found the entrance to noah's ark, and tried to film it, but when the camera turned towards it, there was distortion, but when it turned to other places it returned to normal.. creepy...

they had this realli nice theme song, its abt the end of the world(?) but ya, its still nice though.

they also said that the __________ (end of the world) [forgot the name] was coming cus of the countries fighting and increased natural disasters, it scared me. so now im hoping i wuld die b4 anetink happens.. selfish, i know.

im realli impressed wf JK Rowling, its amaazing how she gets all this ideas. no matter how much ff i read, she seems to totally deviate frm what others think. amazing. very down to earth also, as much as she can do it wf it being in another world. realistic, reflects the human nature and doesn realli have wild fantasies, other than the plot of course.. nvm, i dun noe wad im toking abt.. i tink im juz shallow.

sleepppp i need sleep.

results part 2

2005-07-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

ok. the gd news, no Fs. bad news, 3 Es, n 2 of them r language. yup. i failed GP. badly too, worst i've ever done. 18/50. oh. my bio got A. but im not happy. its 75/100, borderline A, n the asshole got higher than me. im pissed off.

so its E8 E8 E A AO. at least i culd get promoted. n the mj pple, dun keep bad k? cus u haf to keep in mind my sch standard.

btw, i hate trigo.

HW: bio, chem, maths, gp, chi. blech

ohya. chem SPA went well, cept 4 a few glitches, like a few unpredicted bumps(literally), but overall it went ok. fin the entire thing 10 min b4 time. got the ans. most of my classmates didn fin the thing. hopefully this will pull my grade up...

bio SPA nxt nxt wk. have a feeling its microscopy. otherwise, haf to revise O level bio...

i hate trigo.

resultss

2005-07-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

huuuuweeeee. results results. chi, 35/100. not bad, i expected 20 plus. need to buck up, need D7 4 U. exam in oct. jia you!. nxt, maths, borderline E, 37/80. at least i passed. chem, AO, 37/100. only 3 in my class passed. n the highest is C. n tt person got A 4 maths n 72/100 4 chi, which is also an A. bio... not yet. GP.. mb tmr. hopefully i pass bio wf a gd mark. pleaseee god. n i failed gp, so i need the bio pass. ahhhh..

i made sushi todae. tink half of the rice in eaten during the process of makin it. too sticky..

pe was fun. 2 periods todae, super hot, but the teacher didn make us 2 rds b4hand, so we survived. batting is funnnnn. wanna play softball.

aneone meeting this sat? i tink i can join u all after the survey thing, shouldn take too long..

chem SPA tmr, then bio pract after sch.. helppp..

my classmate agreed to lend me her HBP!!! yaya, this sat rite?? yay!!!!!

survey

2005-07-12T20:15:00.000+08:00

did half of the survey todae, was kinda fun. turns out the guy whom i hate contributed abt 60% of my half of the survey, even if he totally embarrassed himself doin it. guz wad he did. pple wait 4 the passerby to come to them rite? he runs after them. u tell me how idiotic he looks? haha, but ya, almost all the times he asked them like tt they dun realli go n do the survey. so now he looks stupid n has no acheivement to back it up. haha, but ya, other times it was ok, was raining though, so the paper got wet n the pple r irritated. blech. we went orchard rd. on a wkdae. so lesser pple, but tons of tourists, so gd 4 us.

i discovered tt singaporeans/asians dun do the questions which r open-ended or when they chose "others" they dun specify, but the other pple (mainly frm australia of sum country in the west) do them. so weird. i tink its becus s'poreans dun tink much, or rather, we need quite a lot of time to tink of an ans. or it culd be becus we r lazy.. interesting though...

in U u haf to take a minor n major correct? i wan psychology 4 major, n mb sociology 4 minor..

ohoh, i found this realli interesting handiwork thing which makes wristbands, kool neh? damn cheap too, one set 1 dollar, 12 diff designs, n u can choose ur own color if u juz use threads.

oh ya, im goin sentosa to do the other half of the survey this sat. yup yup. haven been to sentosa in ages n ages...

oh. n my oral sucked. like bad. the reading? i fumbled towards then end, then i paused at a word i didn noe how to read, 4 abt 30 sec. yup. n the last passage when through the earthquake, trembled like hell. oh. n my oral question was 'if a local U n an overseas U offered u a scholarship, which one would u choose?' n i thot, fat hope man. then i said local, cus i wuld miss my family, haf pple to take care of u, im not an outgoing person, diff to make new frend, blah3, then i keep repeating my pts. n i went mouthing **** after they dismissed me. so yup. its screwed. so 4 the pple hu haven do their oral, gd luck.

p.s. the guy brought a pillow to sch todae. my friend said he's as entertaining as mr bean. haha, weird guy he.

iPod!!

2005-07-09T19:45:00.000+08:00

happy happy!!!! 4 one, i fin part of my math and chem b4 pokemon!! haha, then suppose to do EoM, but, as usual, got distracted. aneway, the cherry on this happy happy (sun)dae [too bad not realli sunday though, haha]. an iPod!!! yes! yes! yes! haha, my aunt came by n juz suddenly, out of the blue, unexpectedly, gave me an iPod shuffle. totally out of the blue. she said it was on offer, was meant 4 my father, but ane ho, it ended up wf me. damn happy abt it though. haha, made my dae man, made my dae. yay yay!

HW: math file, bio test, gp journal and chi oral.

wanted to put a happy quote here, but realized i didn haf ane. how sad..

why

2005-07-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

this is a bad dae. 1st, i found out i failed my chi. then i didn bring my chem pract. then mt gp teacher said tt 8/10 of the papers she marked did badly. then we had to go 4 trigo. which i totally hate.

1) chi: during chinese lesson, miss sum finished the past year ao level chinese summary which we did the last time. then, she gave us our CA chinese question paper, and told us that she wants to go through it. and so we did. 1st is the 30 mark section. ok, so i got 3/30. next. the 10 mark multiple choice section. 2/10. next, the second 10 mark section, 4/10. next, another multiple choice. she did the 1st 3 question. 0/3. total? 9/53. what a cheerful estimate. i almost cried on the way to chemistry.

2) maths: trigo. i tink tt kinda speaks for itself. it totally sucked. like what the fuck is he R thing n T formula?!?! oh god.

i tink im totally numb now. im looking at my 9/53 n i didn feel anetink.

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HW: bio file, chem tuts, maths tuts, chi oral notes, gp journal, EOM

todae: bio file. revise carbo, read thru respiration.

sat: chem tuts, assignments, EOM

sun: gp journal ,chi oral notes, all maths stuff.

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i asked my friends before, why do they live? what do they live for? i got answers like food, happiness, God.. then i asked myself what do i live for?
the answer? i don't know.
i asked my parents why did they have me. they said its for society. my sister was an accident, they said that God gave her to them.
so why am i here? what do i live for? why do people want to survive? why? why? why?
i tried anime.
i live for anime, for the next episode, for the next manga. then i thought, does it matter? its a story, a fantasy, a fake, why should i live for it?
i live to make my parent proud. why? because they raised me. why did they raise me? for society.
who is society? why are we indebted to them? what has they done for us? they gave us a way to survive.
but why do we want to live? why? for your goals? your dreams? why does even an ant struggle to live? why? why? why?
i don't know. frankly, i think that God made us to entertain him. (no offence to chirstians. even if i am one..) he feeds us when he feels like it. he drowns us when we don't obey. he killed his own son to get our belief. i do not believe in heaven and hell.
may be that's why i want to find out how we think, why we do this or that. maybe that what i am suppose to do in life. maybe...

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the tragedy of life, is not having a life worth living. that is my life.

2005-07-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

A miracle has happened. I got a D for chem. ya. wow rite? Haha, in case u r wondering, no, its not the CA, it's the redox test b4 the CA. n I got D 4 redox. Amazing.

guz wad. they wan to meet my parents to get the result slip. im dead. my ct is my chi teacher, n she's a bit self-centred, so i tink she will harp on her own subj, which i totally didn study for (refer to last last entry). im a gonner.

on the bright side (sorta) the parents dae is not until 23/7 so i dun haf 2 worry abt it now..

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lotsa hw lotsa hw lotsa hw.........

hmmm deeeee dummmm.

happy todae.

me tink cus of coffee.

hum dee dum...

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graduation

2005-07-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

He was worried that they would each drift apart. It was inevitable. They would have their own experiences with other friends from their universities, and there would be less and less that they had in common with each other, until it just seemed like all they did was sit around and recount their high school days. Which would just be pathetic. And so they wouldn't bother to get together anymore.

juz something which realli said what i felt during graduation. n now.

exams

2005-07-01T16:20:00.000+08:00

ok. yay. exams finished. y do i not feel happy? gah. ok. i'll start frm the top. gp. it suxed. as per usual. the compo was totally not smooth and i went off track once. luckily i didn go too far.. then i finished early and wrote out all my math formulaes on a foolscape. during the exam mind. n the teacher keep patting my back asking are 'u ok?' everytime she walked pass. i tink its cus i put my head down. but still... damn weird.

ok, then math. its the worst paper i ever sat for. the absolute worst. i tried doin the last question 1st, n all i got was a major depressor. it was apgp btw. i tink my sch likes apgp. tts 11 mrks gone. then the nxt question. 10 mrks. max i got is 5. if im lucky. function. nxt, 8 mrks, all gone. inequalities. i still rmb the bloody question. x over x square plus 9 less than or equals to 0. then hence, prove 1 over modules x plus 3 more than equals to 1 over modules x minus 3. aneone bothered to do this, tell me how dumb i was n i would be ever grateful. oh. then there MI i cant prove and a summation question tt was totally blank. i think the only one i can get sum mrks is the translation question. gah.

then chinese. another disaster. they haf this shu yu and chen yu or wadever section which is worth 30 mrks. n guess wad. i didn noe!! *dismayed* my bloody teacher didn remind us abt it, or tt its worth 30 mrks. i tot it was like the usual paper, the one word one only, then i can drop it n minus ten only, now they gif me this?!?! owww. 30 out of a 100. miracle if i pass.

then BIO!!!! hahahaa i tink its the only subj i can pass. i noe i will pass. its juz whether its a gd pass or a bad pass. n my teacher gave us tips lor, god. so unfair. he went thru the enzyme inhibition the dae b4, he set the paper btw, n it came out as a 14 mrk essay question. so those hu didn study got lucky. grrrr. unfair. i was missing a few pts which i culdn rmb, so made sum crap up. other than tt, its gd. wrote a lot 4 the paper.

then chem. amazingly, i only didn finish one question. 10 mrk gone. 2 parts i totally dunno how to do. 6 mrks. gases n liquid graph thing n other question which i totally crapped abt. was tempted to write: ya, i noe it crap, but makes sense no? haha, hopefully the teacher won't get pissed off wf my ans.. luckily its the last question. so unless he/she skip questions i shuld be ok. then the ionisation energy thing. i got totally lost when i got the electron no. wrong, then i had to cancel n redo. n i still tink its wrong. nvm.. hopefully i can get at least an AO 4 this n math, then i can promote to J2. oh mannn...

im so sad.

wad happened to my 3 As?? wahhhhhhh.................

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HW:

GPP (done. need to print though, aneone wanna volunteer? my printer spoil)

GP - compre n journal

Math - solution of tri tut, every other tut..

Chem - chem bonding Q 8 to wadever.

Bio - no haf. (haf i mentioned i love bio? cus i do. haha)

Chi - dun tink haf. tue got oral though, n then i haf to skip n chem lect. again. u noe if i didn skip tt gases n liquid lect tt time i mite be able to do the graph q todae? i hate my sch.

tt all?

yup.

i hate sch.

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we apparently goin to peici's hse tmr. but dunno meet where n when n i dun even noe where she lives plus im not sure im even invited. oh ya. need to burn kh's cd..

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mom sick todae. overwork. haiz. now i feel guilty abt buying the HBP. tink i will borrow it frm sumone.. knew i shuld haf gone 4 the lucky draw.. btw, hu wan the fowl bk? The Opal Deception. is it kh or osha? forgot. oh, n rubez, i pot 28 is cuming out nxt mth, so i tink i will buy ur sd 26 nxt mth too, need to save money...

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I see you every other day but it is still not enough. I miss you my friends.

new skin

2005-06-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

i tink i prefer doin my own skin than go n find skins other pple do.. wheeee nice?

im trying to not tink abt the upcoming exam. so. ya. not toking abt it.

my internet sux. it keeps getting disconnected. irritating..

m d/ling rurouni kenshin manga frm http://www.directmanga.com i love tt site.

wan thumbdrive now. then i can keep a small collection of digital manga. so far i haf flame of recca (completed), saiyuki gaiden(completed) and rurouni kenshin. rurouni kenshin is giving a lot of prob, keeps having infected files.. kh?? help!!! i tink i should email the person in charge.. b4 they will go check it out or sumtink... i tink i will go 4 dn angel next. if they haf it.. gahhhhh

family toking abt sum new butt washing thingy which is attached into the toilet bowl. damn weird hearing my elders toking abt asses n stuff...

studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy

quizzes!!

2005-06-15T13:03:00.000+08:00

Quiz Time!!!

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Below Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

soooo true. cept 4 the maths thing..

Your Deadly Sins

Greed: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You'll die in a castle, surrounded by servants.

How Sinful Are You?

im greedy and lazy. true true.

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

true. i tink. u guys tell me.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

Who's the True You?

if u sae so..

You Are 19 Years Old

19

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

typical. im always older when i do this kinda thing..

Your Japanese Name Is...

Yukako Sato

What's your Japanese Name?

this a nice name? looks nice to me..

sy's test(but not realli a test..)

ESFP

Extraverted sensing types are pragmatic and realistic with a zest for living life to the fullest by way of multiplying experiences. Always on the alert for what needs immediate attention or what might provide a bit of action, excitement or entertainment, they engage quickly with their environment. They seek and enjoy freedom, are good-natured, direct, and tolerant and are often the ones who provide levity.

They have a way with dealing with people on a very equal platform and are not easily star struck. Rank, celebrity and status mean little when they are face to face with another individual.

On the job, they appreciate having the right tools and are quite ingenious at finding ways to fix and repair things with dexterity. They love variety and are curious and adventurous, enjoying the unexpected. Their brand of extraversion is one of deeds rather than words. As long as things are moving along, they are happy. They like to keep things simple and immediate, going with the flow. They are helpful in very concrete ways, providing the correct tools or specific service the person requires. They often have an uncanny ability to respond appropriately in cases of emergencies, often having excellent reflexes. They act without thinking. They also tend to have natural mediating skills.

They are attuned to the environment and the myriad colours, textures, sounds, beauty and the sensuousness of it all. They are quite graceful and agile while moving through their environment. They love having fun and if things are too quiet they may provide the entertainment or distraction. They learn by imitation and are keen observers. They teach through example. Their attention will always go towards whatever provides the keenest impression on their senses.

complete greek to me. but still cool though, i tink i did sumtink like this in sch..

wheeeeee, fin the quizzes!!

i realli should start studying...

"Everything You Want"

2005-06-12T11:49:00.000+08:00

"Everything You Want"

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

[Chorus]

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

[Chorus]
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know

double dead

2005-06-12T11:44:00.000+08:00

i c pple mugging 4 their exams n i tink "shit. i knew i forgot sumtink." then i go bck n d/l my manga. haha, exams 2 wks away n here im d/ling manga. the gd thing? im not reading ff much. bad thing? im still on the comp. gah.

i shall copy sy n do a listing.
1)maths - C
hw: tys, tut Q
study: apgp, summation, binomial, inequalities. realli realli hard.

2)bio - B
hw: none
study: cell structure, biological molecules, enzymes, transport. i love bio. haha

3)chem - E (fat hope)
hw: june assignment, gases n liquid tut
study: everything: mole, mass spec, redox, gases, atomic, bonding. i hate chem..

4)gp - pass
study: read notes b4 test.

5)chi - pass
study: dunno

6)leisure - fin d/ling flame of recca n burn into cd. fin pool tmr.

7) STUDYYYYYYY

8) remind self. if fail, go jump out window. 17th floor, hopefully can die..

i miss my frends..

dead

2005-06-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

im in deeep trouble. i haf to pass up chem tmr, n i haven done my hw. haha, not planning to do though..

found this nice nice site frm kh . www.directmanga.com they haf flame of recca!!! haha, yaya, since i cant haf the anime, the manga shuld be gd enuf. hopefully my mom's laptop can burn, then i can bring it to sch n watch, haha. yayayayaya

im getting extra money!!! yay! if i wash the car two time a wk, n i get $6 each time, i will get abt 30 before my maid comes bck! then i need abt 20 more then i can buy hbp!! yaya!! hopefully my sis wont fight wf me 4 the job.. goin to start this sat. hopefully my parents realli gif the money, otherwise, i dunno how m i goin to get the money 4 the bk..

cant wait 4 sch to end. then mb i can finally get down to studying *pikachu juz ran pass* fat hope. im soooooo deaddd, juz realised how much i haf to study. n i cant do tt at hme, i'll juz laze ard the comp and do nutink. oh man.. at least i haf this firm image of me staying bck one more yr if i didn study, so i juz tink of it n i will go n study. but i seem to do more work when im wf frends. like tt time i studied wf pei ci kai n osha, i got 19/30 4 tt test, which is a B. my only pass. then i studied wf sy n kh, tt dae n the teacher went over tt tut he nxt dae, lucky i did man, even if i didn fin the essay Q, its mainly copying aneway, so its ok. haha, love my frends. sad thing is juz tt i cant ask them stuff, i always think of them when i haf a Q n not my classmates, which is like damn weird. so in the end i juz leave the Q 4 the teacher to explain.

i am everything you want
i am everything you need
i am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
i said all the right things,
at exactly the right time
but i mean nothing to you n i dont know why
-- Vertical Horizon

HW

2005-06-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

4 the 1st time ever hw has other meaning than homework 4 me... haiz, nv knew housework so tiring n irritating n makes me stink. haha, i noe, im damn pampered. worst still, my bro not doin anework n my sis is goin out 24/7, so in the end, everything me n my mom do. n i juz had to pick the most time consuming job to do. laundry. grrrr, nv appreciated maids more.

went to kh's hse to study, got in 3 hrs of bio n finished most the hw, sy n kh criticize everyone of my fav anime/manga. *sob* then we watched the stupid/weird/dumb/okok show tt kh likes. still tinks the pigtails look dumb wriggling by themselves. haiz, cant wait 4 pool dae!!! though someone doesn wan to treat me. m i tt bad? :(

sy said tt my hair very manageable. like since when? its like super thick n flies all over the place. i like it best when its wet. i tried sum moose(sp?) on it, n it had no effect wadsoever. im not touching hair products anemore.

finally

2005-06-03T12:31:00.000+08:00

in sch, waiting 4 ili so i can play taidee, (actually finding excuse to use comp instead of doin chem, which is due tmr) then i go off when she go 4 soccer. oh, n i finally cut my hair, so its like super short now, n very fluffy. my cousin getting married tmr, n im suppose to go 4 the afternoon thing, which i dun wan to. luckily, got lecture, so nvm, cant make it aneway, but they fin wadever they wan to do tmr so not i dun haf lect. n also no excuse to go 4 the wedding thing. sooo, im trying to get sum pple to go out tmr n study, n i miss them. but everyone not free.. so now i tink i will juz stay in sch n use the comp. hopefully they will be open...

bro brought bck loads of very very nice chocolate. but cannot open, cus it will all be gone.. so now its juz sitting there collecting ice.. dumb neh?

i haf this urge to go roller blading, but nobody to accompany me... bored, hafta train 4 natfa, haven do yet lor.. then later the teacher not happy, i haf frm after national dae to end of sept to do, so i dun tink i can pretend to be busy... hate nafta, n the track.. makes my feet feel heavy, n me feel stupid, dun u feel idiotic running rd n rd? its like u r an hamster on a wheel or sumtink... dumb. i much rather do play games or cycling or sumtink, at least u haf scenery, n games is 4 entertainment.

sick of sch..

keyboard sux

2005-05-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

bro came bck, got prezzies, lousy comp. keyboard not working properly. tons of hw realli spoilt cant type much comp beeping realli loudly wanna scream oh ya maid goin off too big trouble me in sch sux miss tk miss euphoria tired

sr sux.

2005-05-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

juz found out my timetable. turns out i haf to go to sch 4 the 1st 2 wks of june. gah, then i haf chi oral on the 2nd, exams straight after the 'hoildaes' end, PLUS pw. god, i m so fucking dead.i seriously pity the nxt batch. if they survive nxt yr, i'll kowtow to them. freaking hell.

was goin to write abt the bright side, then i realised that there is no bright side, cept 4 the fact tt my bro is coming bck tmr and hopefully he will be able to fix my comp as soon as possible, then i can d/l stuff. oh, n i got 30/30 4 my chem pract, it was the only time during a pract i actually felt smart(usually i juz copy pple's ans). sadly, i couldn feel tt way all the time. haiz... on the other hand, i got 20/100, which is an F, for the mini redox test todae, wad a difference man, the gd thing is tt i haf a classmate hu got 8/100 and only one person in the entire class passed. so ya, hopefully tmr will be better, though i dun realli c how...

i seriously dunno y i took chem, oh wait, i noe y, cus i wanted bio. rite. tts it, i wan to quit sch.

ug dae thingy

2005-05-22T12:29:00.000+08:00

went to tkg yest. felt like goin hme.. n i realli mean it, although they chged the sch a bit, its still the same old sch, miss the library, small but homey, compared to sr's one.. np rm also, the music, the curves(n i dun mean the gurls) the circular blk where u can juz scream across the tok to sumone else, not like sr, haf to walk a whole rd to go frm A to B.

but i wouldn wan to go bck without my sqdmates, tt wuld be meaningless.. skipped the 'campfire' to go void deck n toked, juz like the gd old daes, cept tt we or rather i, picked up cards n taught nuraini, she's a fast learner.

seems like everyone is in hockey or floorball, or in sum sports cca.

i miss euphoria.

late

2005-05-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

1st time ever i come hme so late, left sch at 7, reached hme at 8. i had discus n tug of war todae, fri got javelin.

discus was sad. haha, tug of war too actually. realli dun like boys...

i had 3 strikes 4 discus. XXX. all faults. haha, i cant throw lah, tts practically the 1st time i threw discus, how i throw properly u tell me? but still, faults all the way.. n tt was the finals too, cus too little pple to haf qualifying rounds and all.

then tug of war,the grd was muddy, so we took off our shoes. we haf like half the no. of pple compared to other houses, n all gurl, most of them in my class too. we r aquila btw, n we fought against cetus, which has little pple also, but all boys, so its like the battle of the sexes. amazingly, we won. the 1st rd tt is, then we got dragged to the grd 4 the nxt 2 rds. literally, i didn get too dirty cus i hanged on to the rope. 1st time i 'played' in the 'mud'.. more like puddles though..

i got bck my chem todae. i got a C and an F. overall, AO pass. haha, quite gd lah, considering i didn study, its the mass spec tt helped.

my math teacher sae our class got 2 passes.[which is 13.5 upon 30] so ya, at least i can be comforted tt im not the only one hu failed..

bio was ok yesterdae, didn realli understand some of the Qs but overall it was ok. hopefully..

PI is DONE. for real. im soooo happy!!! but now i haf to do the GPP. =P

its seems tt mj is doin their oral aready. mine is 1st wk of june holidae. then this sat haf to make up 4 the maths n chem lectures im missing tmr cus of sum stupid tok. so im not free this sat... WAHHHHH!!! bloody sch, making me miss so many impt lectures... i fail then u noe.

ok, gtg, chem teacher bck n bitching, so now need to go do hw. n to those goin 4 wadever elections, GOOD LUCK!!!!!

sun

2005-05-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

1st time i meet my frends on sun. haha, 1st time i study so hard 4 a test also, i realli cant fail bio though, i'll kill myself 1st. hopefully the test not so hard..

i tink i haf to redo my pi, my idea a bit like a fantasy to me, need a lot of money to build.

still haf a lot of hw. hopefully the holi will cum soon.

sch...

2005-05-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

juz got my grp 4 pw. n guz hu i got stuck wf. the idiot selfish inconsiderate guy frm my gp. hu didn do anetink 4 the presentation which is due tmr. he. is. an. utter. idiot. the male version of lx. but ten times worst. retribution i tell u, retribution.

sooo, other than tt, my other grp members r ok, i haf a D in my grp, which is kool. haha. D is dominant btw, im a S or C = family person or very detailed, frm wad i rmbed. my pi is goin well, i juz need prove that s'pore is lacking in the tourism department then i can do my pi. n im DONEEEE. DONE i say haha.

then todae they were nominating pple to go 4 the captain, v-captain n secretary 4 the houses n guz wad? 2 pple nominated me 4 secretary!!! haha, tts sooo kool. i was almost tempted to go, but secretary need to write in the newsletter or sumtink n i cant write. at all. so ya. but its still kool though, me, being nominated haha. though the guy hu supposingly nominated me was kinda saying yan ting in this realli idiotic deep voice n he mite not be calling me but im the only one in my class wf a ting, so he shuld be calling me rite? or is it juz my wishful thinking...

n i got hme late todae n my mom wasn happy. my dad was sorta screaming at me. then he asked me 4 my sch no. but like the sch noe me is it? sheesh. then i didn gif him n he nv ask aready. ??. weird dad i haf.

ok. weird thing i noticed after reading sy's entry. she noes a jinyu. n my classmate is jinyu. she noes a wilfred. my ct rep is wilfred. creeeeppyy...

ohoh, u noe tt time i wrote abt this handsome guy whom the teachers think r handsome? i 'analysed' y he looks gd. n i tink i noe y. 4 one thing, he has white teeth, he's tall. but ya, i tink i noe where the handsome part comes in, rosy lips. n the eyelashes, realli thick. n the complexion, completely smooth lor, sooo unfair. cus this other guy in mind games also look like tt, smooth complexion n rosy lips n all n he looks cute. but he's forgetful n deaf. literally btw, on the right ear, or was it left...

haizzzzz y cant i haf their kind of complexion? its so unfair, they shuld haf pimples all over n oozing pus.

ok. tts eww.

~~~~~

hw 4 wkend. maths file, fin tut. chem redox assignment, gases tut. bio enzymes tut n study 4 test, biological molecules. gp journal.

tts frm todae. still haf tmr...

i hate sch. i failed my chem n maths. chem 6 Q. did 3, wrongly summore. maths 3Q did 1.5 the 0.5 wrong also. but then i didn study 4 tt one, so ya, fail also expected one. totally forgot all my formulas. oh ya, forgot to add. [memorise maths n chem formulas] the paper was easy lor, juz tt i didn rmb the formulas. blech.

oh ya, my curtain wearing teacher? she wore sumtink decent todae. much nicer man. it was a blouse n skirt btw. ok, dun tell her this k? but i tink she has no need to wear a bra. cus she was wearing a singlet under her blouse, which was white. ok, u guys dunno her, but if u ever do, which i hope not, dun tell her tt. she'll kill me.

rite. im perverted.

ok.

hw to do. things to memorise. sleep to sleep. gtg.

beat

2005-05-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

eh. i tink writing my troubles out realli help. at least i didn feel as depressed todae. finally got my grpmates n tried to haf a meeting on sat. but the only guy, (the other one was a gurl) lives in redhill? sumwhere there, apparently he lives very far n doesn want to come bedok to do the gp presentation. so i said ok, we meet in sch. but he doesn wan to either (u can hear ripping by now, yes, its my hair.) so i said to stay bck after pe to discuss wad to do then we go hme n get info. n he bloody ran off after pe. I HATE BOYS. idiots, the lot of them. IDIOTS.

luckily the gurl stayed, so i culd do sum work, she even wanted to cancel the appt on sat to meet 4 the grp wrk. n the guy is lazy to come to sch. im not asking u to come early in the morning u noe. idiot. idiot. idiot.

is there such a thing as a gurls jc? cus i tink im goin to save all the gurls the trouble of facing boys by setting up an all gurls jc.

there's this guy in my class hu is apparently very handsome. my ct sae he's handsome. my chem teacher sae he's handsome. my gp teacher sae he's handsome. cus the other guys keep turning to face him, so they sae he handsome so they keep staring at him. the funny thing is, i tink he is ok ok ah, (u noe guys haf better complexion than gurls? tt is sooooo unfair.) but not exactly handsome lor. or mb its juz me. shall post a class pic as soon as we haf one n point it out to u all. then u tell me he handsome not. n he's tall too. grrrrr. 2 boys taller than me. i dun like.

i juz found out i didn need to copy out my protein tut cus i did aready. haha, yay tts one less hw. but tts also the last of my 1st 3 mths tuts, so now i haf to DO the tut. bad. then i haf chem redox tut which i dun understand half of n in which there r tons of equations to memorise. im sooo dead. maths im still as lost as ever, i missed one maths n chem lecture yest cus of tekong so now i haf to catch up. whic means revision. n my MI needs to be memorised. i haf a test nxt mon, maths class test, tue, chem I, wed, chem II, thur, maths lecture test. nxt nxt mon, bio lecture test, thur, pi.

im a gonner. PLUS, i got bck my last maths test, ap gp n summation. 5/10. which is quite gd since i didn realli study 4 it. and my chem assignment got D 51% i was horrified. i MISSED a bloody question!! a whole bloody question, not i dunno how to do, i totally missed it, as in i skipped frm 3 to 5 w/o doin 4!!! flipping hell! god. im nv doin tt again. nv. apparently the grades r counted in CA, they taking top 3, i tink, not confirm yet, so im goin to take my assignments seriously now. seriously. god. a D. n im aiming 4 A? PLUS, its the easiest topic of the lot lor. eck.gah.horrified.

tired...

2005-05-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

new skin, nice nice??? i didn realli like the position of the tb but i cant seem to be able to take it out, haizz... nvm, its still nice though.

went to tekong todae, found out abt how the ns pple live. saw a lot of cute guys, also saw mushy food which my frends said r nice, didn try meself so i dunno.

was reminising abt tkg this morning. i miss the uniform, my frends, the food, the free times, my frends, the teachers, cca, the music(u noe i went frm a music sch to an art sch?), the np rm, the air, scenery, girls(not like tt), jannah, simone, maggy, nat, farah, diyana, ema, nic, lily, irah, sheena, yun qi, soo ting, wendy, fatin to state a few, hell, i even miss lx.

haiz.. im a total outcast in sr, i mingle wf everyone, but no one 'keeps' me, there was a grp wk thing todae n i got stuck wf the other outcast in my class. a guy, n im missing a member, n i haf to do the speech on mon.

i miss my frends, my sec sch daes, the long daes in which we do nutink. i miss the air we breathed, the greenery. i dread goin to sch everydae, i haf no frends, nutink to look forward to. im lagging behind my work, i haf 3 tests nxt wk which i haven studied 4, and the bloody pi. i haf pe tmr, n a long dae, the wkend is coming but all i c is work. i noe im lazy, but tt nv seemed to drag me down b4, i dun realli noe wads wrong, but i miss my frends. it hurts to look ard me n see no one i noe, i hang wf my classmates but i feel so far away. i feel extra, left out, even when they try to tok to me. i feel sick all the time, n i only feel better when i come hme. the net seems to be my only cure.

i hate sr. i seriously hate it. frm the field to the pple. i want my sec sch, i wuldn mind studying if i had my frends, hu i only c once a wk. i feel myself when im wf them, even if we r doin nutink. i realli hope we wuldn drift apart, i cant stand it. ive cursed more times todae then in my last 4 yrs. its a bad dae.

im so emotional todae, n im not even half as stressed as say soon ying or nat.

I smile because it hides the pain; I laugh because it makes me forget about everything that's happened; I live my life pretending that everything's okay... Even though it isn't.

again.. pi

2005-04-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

ok, was done wf my pi yesterdae, buttt, the teacher sae my pi missing sumtinks, so now i haf to edit sum, apparently my evaluation is quite gd. .:biggrin:. haha, so im goin to do it now.. er, after im done wf this entry. then tmr got maths test n i haven study yet, the teacher, mr cheu, very weird, blew his head up over nutink... weird, then he sae tt the hoped that we wuld do well in our tests cus we asked 4 it to be pushed bck 1 wk. haiz.. i tink will fail. dreamt tt i handed in a blank script yest. .:horrified:. haizzzz, sch wrk piling up. i haf bio, lipids n carbo to rewrite, chem tut n study, by todae, gp speech and reading n essay outline. ah crap. im in big trouble. ok. prioritise. pi, gp, maths. k. i can do tt. shall update sum other time.

hwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhwhw

insightful?

2005-04-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

i juz realised that pple tend to write insightful thots in their blogs. *scrolls past all my ex-posts* how cum i dun haf ane?

are blogs here to let u post ur more insightful thots? or r they to let u vent ur frustration at the world? it is ur blog rite? so its ur right to write wadever u wan, but is it an unwritten rule that u haf to write deep thots? ur reflections, revelation.

dah. my "insightful thots".

god im pathetic.

pw

2005-04-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

i finally haf an idea for pw, n apprently, the teacher has nv heard of the idea b4, so it sounds promising. so wads the idea?, *whisper whisper*, brilliant rite? haha, im not saying, later pple copy, i went thru a lot of scolding frm the teacher to finally get this idea which made the teacher 'look at me wf another eye' diract translation frm a chi word, phrase thing -gua mu xiang kan- not very sure how u 'spell' it..

aneway, its very interesting, and i hope its acceptable, haha, mb s'pore will accept my idea and do it. *pretty castle in the sky* haha. haiz.

haf toooonnss of hw, haven done ane of them. im suppose to do a speech 4 gp summore. but at least the teacher is interesting, my 1st 3 mths teacher was very boring.. her name is miss latha, very pretty teacher, she's indian btw.

my math teacher sux. mr chew, he's my 1st 3 mths teacher summore. *tortured* haizzz.

at least my bio teacher is ok, mr ow. keep calling him mr peh, dunno y also, he doesn look anetink like mr peh.. he keeps teaching us how to analyse the question and stuff, interesting, but sumtimes we juz wan the bloody ans u noe? he's lucky he has all these 3 periods of bio tut to fill up, otherwise, we'll prob be still at water tut.. glad i came bck to sr, i can skip alot of tut work for bio, n get extra practice for chem. i tink i noe my mole concept very well now. C=12 N=14 O=16 Cl=35.5 B=10.8 Br=137(i tink, or was it I? hmmm...) Na=23 etc etc. now in juz need to learn how to form proper formulas n i'll be set to go. haha, my teacher is on maternal leave, so relief teacher now, guz hu? its miss yong!! haha, im serious! but she's not our tkg bio miss yong ah, i wish man, this teacher sux. ok, mb not sux, but i dun realli like her much.

haf i told u? a bio n chem (mine) teacher are on maternal leave in my sch, at the same time, mb they had an orgy? hahahahahahahaha omg, im soooooo sick..

ok, ignore wad i juz wrote.

gah, i realli need to do my hw.. eheh, if u all having ane study session, ask me along k? i wan to hang out wf u guys, but i realli need to do my work, like last sat, went out the whole n didn do ane work when i came bck. then had to stay up to fin gp n cheated wf the rest, copy 4 maths n chem, n i still haf a lot of Q i dunno how to do. forgot my tie this morning too, got scolded again, at least we stayed in aircon rm most of the time, so wasnt as irritated as last wk, even if it was 32- crap, no degree sign.. but ya, reaking hot todae n yest, tmr got pe summore.

ahhhh, crap lah, gimme the 5 items anetime, i'll even do it thrice to drop the 2.4, n my sch says tt if we dun get silver or gold for the 1st try, we haf to do it again while those hu passed play. like my highest grade is bronze, u wan me to get silver?? im prepared to fail aready. shall gif up the games, not tt i even had a choice... haiz, i wan javelinnnnn, or dicus, juz let me throw sumtink. wanna spear my ct.

total bitch man, n skinny like a bamboo, literally, she wears curtains and is totally flat, its no wonder she's a miss man, and a total grouch, i got the worst ct ever man. not to mention our lucky lucky class has 4 teachers for pw, so now we haf a lot of guidance, hence my scolding. haiz.. i tink it's becus my class is the sub sci one, supposingly very lousy... bias..

haiz...

yay

2005-04-19T17:43:00.000+08:00

yay!!! haha, finally uploaded the new bckgrd, turns out i haf to chg the format to jpg instead of bmp. haha nice nice?

i tink im addicted to coffee. is tt a gd thing or a bad thing? i didn drink ane yest, n i culdn stay awake. i drank todae, n i culd concentrate. oh man, i hope im not, dun wan to depend on coffee to wake me up.

lots of hw n none done. crap.

worst dae ever

2005-04-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

gah, todae was terrible. still cant believe they put mon as a long dae.. not tt its much better 4 the other dae..

i had 4 tut period of bio. a total killer man, since 3 of them r in a row, cus the j2 got exam, so we cannot do pract, so we had tut. haiz.. total killer man. was half dead when it fin, then got the super boring maths lect, which i culdn stay awake in. suprisingly, its chem which i stayed awake.. weird..

haiz, then when i got hme, the internet wasn working, so i took out the modem n tried to connect it, but it did work, so i took out the wireless thing n put it outside. now it works like a charm, hardly any disconnection. but still, wireless sux. nv buy wireless.

then now i haf bio water n lipids tut to do, then got the pi also, n gp research, i haf to collect an article every wk to write my comments on, chem hw i fin, so tts one down, n maths, which im soooo dead 4, like i noe wad the bloody hell r they doin when i was struggling to stay awake.. haizz...

cant wait 4 the wkend man, n todae is only mon.. *sob* shuld haf studied when i had the time.. regrets..

every thing is not goin my way, even the website dun wan to upload my new bck grd.

ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. i hate jc.

done

2005-04-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

juz fin watching fma. truthfully? im a bit confused. but overall, i wanna cry, its a sort of sad ending, and i realli admire alphose's spirit, haiz.. cant believe it.. i tink i haf to rewatch everything to understand it. but seriously, i tink i almost cried when roy 'died', like bloody hell man, dun scream if he isn dead. scared me half to death..

but many thx to kh for burning the dvd 4 me. juz found out my bro taking the laptop wf him on his trip, 4 6 wks to australia. almost screamed. but luckily he fixed my comp b4 he went off, and i can watch dvd on his comp. so ya. he can take it.. i wont die.. haha.

juz found out one of my classmate has the vcd 4 pot. epi 142 onwards to ard 160 plus. sooo, now im goin to borrow it frm her. hopefully i wont be too busy to fin watching it. i still haf to fin my maths n bio hw... lets all hope the teacher is nice n wont demand 4 it tmr.. n i hate ap gp..

haiz. those pple in jc, gd luck wf ur pi. cus i realli dunno wad to do 4 it..

prattle..

2005-04-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

guz wad? im treasurer again!! haha, fun fun, wan to 'apply' 4 treasurer in mind games also, joining mind games, then can chill while doin cca. haha kool man. only bad thing is that i cant play taidee, teacher dun allow, only bridge. but nvm, got other games to play also.

sch's ok, still quite slack, juz got my time table, n the latest is 4.45, earliest abt 3 i tink. got to do hw now, then can go watch fma which lovely kh burned 4 me. yay!!

i read a romance bk.

Maes Hughes

2005-04-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

im gonna cry. *sob* Maes Hughes died!!!!

brief bio:

Lieutenant Colonel Maes Hughes is a solder belonging to the internal affairs branch of the military. Hughes and Mustang have been close friends for a long time and maintain a deep bond. Hughes has promised to help Mustang climb to the top of the military.

Even though he is often busy on missions, he is still a family man who is constantly thinking of his family. His family consists of his loving wife and daughter.

pic of wife n daughter:

cant believe it, still thot he wuld stand up after Envy shot him, stupid Envy, wad's so nice abt him, asshole, he didn even do anetink!!! *sob* then... then when the daughter ask y is he buried? *wahhhhh* *sob* cant believe it, nv thot he wuld die, bring him back!!!!!! *waahhhhhhh* god. stupid Envy, ass.

Envy the homunculi, and asshole hu wears a skirt. thot he was a she. heh. wadever, either way, he/she is still an ass

juz 4 ur info, Maes isnt my fav character, but he's still nice though. now i wanna but the vcd 4 fma too. n i haven bought the saiyuki one. need money.

hikaru no go juz finished too. todae is a sad sad dae, keep losing at taidee n minesweeper when i play wf ili. haiz, not my dae man..

taidee

2005-04-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

fun fun todae, went bowling, but i tink my ball went into the drain more often than not.. wonder y.. then we went escape which is small, pathetic, idiotic, useless, crappy piece of shit. if ane foreigners went there i wuld be extremely embarressed. then we went comic connection n bought a fma deck, then it turns out to haf diff pic of ugly anime i dunno, so luckily i went to ask the counter person, n they let me chg the deck to a diff one. nice pple. n the new one, which was also the one kh asked me to buy turns out to be very nice, haha, shuld haf listened to her.

then we went to mac to teach them taidee, very fun, haha, so now i can play taidee wf them whenever we run out of things to tok or sumtink, not quite possible, but ya.

now i wan to teach them bridge, but i need 4 players to demo, shall ask sumone else to join us nxt time..

eisley skin

2005-04-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

crap, im so beat, hu knew editing a skin is such hard work... it was interesting though, the positions a bit off, but other than tt it shuld be ok lah, mite fine tune it when i haf ane 'brilliant' ideas to fix it, editing the pic is crap man, so glad im not doin art, digital or otherwise.

bored2

2005-04-07T09:40:00.000+08:00

guz wad? im stuck in sch again, this time i haf until 10.45 to kill, and this keyboard suck..

guz finished pw tok, n im totally lost, dunno wad the bloody hell i m suppose to do, all i noe is that we haf more individual work than grp work, which also means i cant slack. haiz...

i think im doin the nature one, looks more interesting..

btw kh, i dun do gayish skin, i do very simple ones, so if u want sum fancy borders n stuff like the one u haf now then i dun tink i can do it very fast, need to go research 1st. it will prob look like mine now, but diff positions and stuff, then i can chg the entries to put titles instead of dates. can do alterations, but i mite need u wf me, then i dun need to keep callin u or anetink..

and can u pass me the bckgrd as soon as possible? realli need to start studying now... (all tok n no action, haha )n make sure its like wallpaper size, otherwise not nice, very blurry or it will keep repeating n stuff..

bored

2005-04-06T10:30:00.000+08:00

now in sch lib trying to kill time, i haf until 1 b4 i culd go get my timetable n then go 4 cca. wanted to go 4 shooting. but since they didn msg me, i tink i will go 4 mind games, i c how ili wants it. ah damn, i tink i forgot to bring my fone. damn.

juz rmb y i hated chem, y the bloody hell m i taking chem?? haiz, i swear im possessed, i dunno wad the bloody hell i m doin...

culd haf watched sum movie, but the two tv used up aready, i had 3 hrs to kill, now, 2 n a half.

wanna go hme!!!

oh ya, juz rmb, I GOT INTO BIO CHEM!!!!! hahahahahaha, cheer 4 me!! happy happy!! ah crap,now i sound like sy..

sooooo, now i can start studying, haf to go thru bio notes again, n chem notes, they doin atoms, molecules and moles thingy again. so can revise during then i guz, though its realli boring..

juz started ap 4 maths, n i didn bring my notes, how dumb was tt?

juz realised how slow sr is, the ap they did was almost the same as the one maths lecture i went in mj, which is abt 1 mth ago?? like how slow is tt??

haiz, now im realli glad i came bck, at least i can skip all the makeup lecture though im suppose to go study, but ya... wth, wadever lah.

[Murphy's Mothers Laws] When you are broke, ask mom for a loan. She will help you remember what you wasted all your money on.

irritated

2005-04-05T16:59:00.000+08:00

results not out yet... irritated, haf to wait till tmr morning to find out, then till the end of sch to get my timetable. bloody hell man, i wan to noe if i got in!!!! grrr... shuld haf studied harder, then i dun haf to get stuck in sr and waiting to get into a double sci course, cant believe im only one grade away frm the hassle of appealing, realli shuld haf studied harder.

at least i learnt my lesson though, grades realli r impt. irritated.

then the bloody uniform is also bloody hot, n i stayed in the lib practically the whole dae cus there is no bio, chem, maths or gp the whole dae, got chi ah, but i went 4 it aready, so i ponned, will prob fall asleep if i went aneway..

finished 'a man called dave' haiz, so sad, aneone got 'a lost boy'? wan to fin the series. the lib dun haf 'a child called it' or 'a lost boy', but they haf 'a man called dave', like how weird is tt?

then i still dunno wad cca to join, i tink i will go shooting tmr, then nxt wk mind games, then media club, cus i haf one mth trial, so can c c 1st.

sumone thot my skirt is too long, but it looks ok to me, shuld i shorten it? n i miss my pinafore!!! wahhhh!!!! dun haf to worry the blouse being too tucked in or anetink, and then u haf to make sure it stays halfway tucked in and halfway tucked out, or u look like an idiot soooo aneone got extra shoelace thingy?? then i can juz tie it up. blech, i hate jc uniform..

realli need to learn how to read emotions, i tink im realli insensitive..

[Murphy's love laws] Sex is like snow; you never know how many inches you are going to get or how long it is going to last.

wheee

2005-04-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

wheeee...

love my fullmetal skin

2005-04-03T15:37:00.000+08:00

was juz staring at my blog and i found out that i realli like it. shall keep it. hehe. lotr rulez, specially the war scenes. happy happy, mite juz go n buy the set myself, hmmmm...

choices

2005-04-01T16:16:00.000+08:00

haiz, wuldn noe my result until nxt tue. hopefully i wuld get into bio chem n not phy econs, chem econs or phy comp econs. the teacher sae that i still haf to make the 3 choices in the online registration so that if the appeal 4 bio chem is not successsful then they will choose sumtink frm the 3. but the thing is i dun like ane of the 3, i want bio chem. grrr...

quakes and stuff

2005-03-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

cant believe the dae i want to type sumtink is the dae my mom took the laptop. my bro haven fin fixing the comp yet. apparently, he has too go sim lim to get sumtink. and he is having exams now, so i dunno when will it be fixed. he's leaving for australia on the 16 i tink, and his exams end on the 14th, haiz..

i nv thot that i wasnt afraid of death, i know that there wasnt anetink to be scared of and nv understood why pple r scared of death, but the concept of me being not afraid of death was nv brought up.

on mon, i had fiesta nite, which was a whole lot nicer that the 1st ori where we go ard jumping like a lunatic, so i reached hme at 9, which also means that i missed my 6pm show. but luckily, there is a repeat at 12am. so i stayed up to watch.

at 12.10 or so, i felt giddy, as in i felt myself swaying back n forth, but since i occasionally haf these spells, i thot nutink of it. until i heard the wind chimes ringing, but there was no wind, and aneway, it was swaying the opp direction of the supposed direction of the wind aneway. so i looked up, n realli felt the whole house swaying, as in it was like rocking the whole block. so instantly, i knew it was a quake, i mean, it cant be the wind rite? so guz wad i thot then. 'ok, dun toppled, wait until i finish my show 1st, abt 40min later' then i was like, what the hell was i thinking? but since the show was still on, i thot nutink of it.

amazing how selfish i am, i cant believe i didn even thot of waking my family to run downstairs or anetink until i saw the news the nxt nite. like where in the world is my survival instincts!! ah well, at least we r ok though, no wonder i found it too noisy when it was after 12 midnite.. frankly rite, i tink its safer if it toppled when we r still at hme, cus i live at 17th floor, so lesser debris than goin to 1st floor and the building toppled on u rite?

crap lah.

~~

i finally bought my uniform. the person in charge of selling the uniform sucks man, (btw, forgot to add 'suck' for my vulgarities list, im sure u noe wad it means rite?) there is like a super long queue, and they dun haf the common sense to go move some of the stock to the other end of the canteen. then the entire cohort(abt 900) has to go queue at that one pathetic line. grrrr.. so i had to wait until todae to go buy it, im ever grateful to my frend (whom i forgot her name) for dragging me wf her to go buy, granted, i still cut queue, but at least i got my uniform, so what the hell. im goin to miss the freedom of pinafores, at least u dun haf to bother making sure that ur blouse is untucked to the appropriate length so that u dun haf to look like a dork. then i haf a belt and a tie. i haf never touched a tie in my lifetime, like help!!

~~

haiz, now i still dunno if i shuld go 4 media club or shooting or mind games.

media club is boring, but very slack, basically they meet every wed to discuss 4 abt 1 hr plus then we juz go ard taking photo during events n stuff. hardly ane pts at all. then the photography competition also dun need to join to enter, so wads the pt rite?

shooting also, i cant shoot so i cant earn pts by competitions or anetink, and i doubt i can be the president or anetink.

mind games, is also very very very slack, basically, u go there and play games every wed, 2 to 4.30. tts all. im realli tempted to go for mind games, but i need the pts, soooo haiz. dunno ah.

~~

then my combi also, i wan to take bio chem, which is double science and i need A 4 phy/chem, which i dun haf, so i tried appealing and the teacher sae that if i dun c bio chem as one of my choices on the list the comp analysed 4 me tmr, which is the dae i choose my combo, then my appeal wasnt successful. so, pray 4 me k? cus i realli dun noe wad to else i culd do..

haiz.

reflection

2005-03-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

lotr was nice! heh, nv c 4 so long, now i wan to watch e 3rd one.. looove the war scenes, culd care less abt frodo..

haiz, went out practically the whole dae, 1st, i went to church n fell asleep, not my fault k, the pastor was bloody boring. dunno how he can tok nonstop for 1 hr. freaky.

then, i got dragged to my mom's office to help her move 2 cupboards, they picked it up frm the rubbish bin. or rather beside it, cus its too big to fit into a bin, its like taller than my father. n we moved it to the office and my father fixed it outside the office after we moved it alllll the way up to 4th floor. thank god 4 lifts. or rather big lifts, no use if its too small.

then we went hme to pick up my bro n sis n went to see my grandparents, on my mum's side. they r dead btw. then we had a super early dinner at 5 plus. i missed my shows, so im stayin up 4 e 12am repeat. i love cable.

oh ya, im resigned to sr, its goin to stick wf me 4 life. but, i figured, since even sr has 68 pointers, i dun tink it matters wad sch u go to rite? sooo, i juz haf to works hard, i juz dun haf the environment to help. easier said than done, but since my future kinda depends on my a levels, i better gif it all i've got.

its a gd tink cca pts arent need now, cus the 25hrs frm chingay and the one participation pt 4 rd race wuldn matter much now. hopefully i can get into the cc and get summore pts, treasurer is kinda fun.

ive done a bit of self reflection and i found that my attitude to my frends realli sux. its a wonder where i found such gd frends hu understand, tolerate and support me. i thank you all. and pls tell me if im bitchy or anetink, cus i dun noe e meaning of bitchy and needs to be told.

i noe ive been incredibly moody these past mths, but being seperated frm pple i haf been seeing every dae 4 the past 4 yrs is kinda hard on me. i dun realli haf experience in handling wf frends outside of my 'circle' its kinda hard to keep up, i noe everyone goes thru this but i get attached easily, and i need closure, which i dun get if i wan to stay in touch wf my sec sch frends. tts y i hardly rmb my pri sch mates. i kinda adopted a new personality when i entered sec, not sure if its a gd one, but at least i haf sum frends.

i used to tink that having frends caused me to haf lower grades, cus i kept failing in sec 1, its a stupid thinking, cus now i noe its becus i didn study then, i was trying to keep up wf the 'criteria' to be a 'teenager', learning the vulgarities was interesting, i didn noe wad the f-word was until sumone screamed it in my ear becus she dropped sumtink. then i looked it up in the dic and found that it was actually a word, as in u can use in in ur composition n stuff. if u were writing a sex-related essay tt is.

frm then on i noticed that almost every swear word is either related to sex, or the lower part of ur body.

e.g: fuck - To have sexual intercourse with.
shit - bodily wastes excreted frm the anus, which is at the lower part of ur body
bugger - To practice sodomy with ( sodomy - Any of various forms of sexual intercourse held to be unnatural or abnormal, especially anal intercourse or bestiality.)
asshole - anus ( see shit )

the not so sex/anus related ( and not quite vulgarities ):
damn ( norm )
bloody ( norm )
hell ( norm )
oh god ( mild )
oh man ( mild )
oh no ( the mildest )

i tink fuck is the most vulgar one, i tink there r summore but i can't seem to rmb them.

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juz read thru n m still wondering how i got a list of vulgarities...

aneway, i realli hope this posts, but i shall copy this sumwhere if it doesn.

and thank you all 4 being a gd frend. pls, keep in touch.

for those hu r still appealing, or waiting 4 their appeal results, i wish u gd luck.

appeal unsuc

2005-03-24T18:26:00.000+08:00

appeal unsuccessful. shall go watch lotr now.

COMP SUX

2005-03-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

ori sux. jc sux. i hate life. and comps. i juz wrote a confession and the comp didn upload it. now is the time where i take it as a sign that god doesn wan me to confess my thots... ok, ive offically gone nuts.

write it sum other time. but i wan to sae i realli appreciate u all as my frends. n the comp better upload this.

sr

2005-03-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

soooo, how was my result u sae? sr, im not goin anewhere...

haiz, sooo regret putting sr as second man, soooo dumb of me. well, tt and not studyin hard enuf. but its ok lah, at least i can get into a jc. and now i haf a lesson. do not leave everything until last min. and THINK, b4 u act. i tink i need a time-turner. cant wait till june 16th!!

haha, now how did tt turn to harry potter? hmm....

ah, aneway, went to mj to appeal. didn noe appealing so ma fun. now i haf to go photocopy my documents tmr and get signatures.

then we hanged ard, then we met kh to go to her very nice condo for the free gym and pool. bof severely lacking. but nice enuf. haha, im sooo mean man. didn even crossed my mind to invite pple over when i found out abt my condo.. so mean of me.

then we go hme n watch tv. now im printing stuff 4 my mom, which needs precision, and is driving me nuts when it dosen print properly. now, i gtg. show starting.

lotr

2005-03-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

backy, aneone got lotr trilogy? i wan to watch!!! haiz, i miss the war scenes, aneone?

no sch!!

2005-03-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

yay!! pple cheer wf me!! no school tmr!!! then i find out wad jc i got into, then i go to tt sch 4 2 daes then i holi again, cheer wf me man!!! haha, realli cheerful, fullmetal was wonderful, i tink i haf a new fav anime, kh!!! u watch aready?? go watch go watch!! kick ur siblings off the comp, or better yet, drag them to watch it wf u. YAY!!!! haha!

ok, happy mood over... ok, mb not.. heh. haiz, realli dun wan to go bck to sr man, wan mj, wan my frends.. i mean srjcians r nice ah, but i miss my frends, n i juz met them, wad, last fri? haiz.

lotr lotr!!! haha, another thing to make me happy, then listening to Boulevard of Broken Dreams also make me happy, i tink its my new fav song. hmmmm...

will be bck soon, lotr starting...

"great, where are we going?"- Pippin

*biggrin*

camp

2005-03-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

ah ha!!!! im back!!!!! haha, the comp is not fixed btw, im on my mom's lap top. aww man, i miss the net man.. shall make this short.

k, campfire was fun, though i didn realli watch it, considering i was late, then i was recounting this epi of fullmetal to soon ying cus it was sooooooo sad. sob. n i culdn keep it in. dun tink she understood me though.

then we walked ard, dunno do wad also, i tink we were waiting 4 e nitewalk to start. n soon ying was telling me this epi of naruto. now i wan to watch naruto..

basically, we scared a few pple. but i tell u 1st, if u planning to scare pple, grab their legs, tt scares them more than bouncing a ball down the stairs. im a scream addict, hehe, i like to hear screams.

then we walked ard summore n settled down at the cold hard floor of the foyer, which is kinda dumb, but the only private place avaliable to play truth or dare. actually, there is only one dare, then the rest is truth, sad man. was fun though, but i tink i enjoyed the company more than the game.

then we listened to the radio, and i stupidly lay btw kh n osha, they were singing to almost every song played. gah, culdn sleep even if i wan to... which i dun btw, culdn aneway.

slept frm 5.30am to 6.00am while freezing my ass off frm the wind. i tink it was the quietest time of the nite. no red cross screaming abt fire drills or god noes wad, and now pple walking ard 4 sentry duty.

then we went to mac 4 breakfast, cost me a pretty penny, didn fill my tummy either.

oh ya, the campfire food was crap man, takeaway nasi lemak, how cheapskate can u get?

then i went hme, read comics until 12.30, then i tink i sleep deprived or sumtink, was watching sum crappy show until 12.40 then i rmb pokemon... but i watched b4, so its ok i guz. watched tv until2, then i tried to go to sleep, but culdn until 3.30pm. weird huh? considering i stayed up the whole nite..

then i went 4 mr yeo's dinner, which has crappy food, but interesting ghost stories which im tryin to forget cus ghosts do not exist. they dun k. they dun.

so now i m telling u abt my dae.

hp bk 6 cover

2005-03-14T11:06:00.000+08:00

http://www.livejournal.com/users/melody2tds/142733.html

link to harry potter and the half-blood prince book cover

thots

2005-03-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

My comp is realli irritating, it keeps disconnecting, n I haf to reconnect it, and even then, its super slow..

I juz realized that they haf anime 4 saiyuki reload!! Happy happy. But its on animax and my parents dun allow me to but it. So kh gave me this webbie to d/l it, but it wuld take approximately 2000 plus hrs, cus there is only abt 11 seeders, pot is much faster to d/l. not to mention wf the moody internet, I doubt I culd d/l anetink fast.. y cant I haf kh's bro?? then I culd at least d/l sumtink w/o being disturbed.

Full metal is interesting, its mainly abt this idea that you cant get anetink without sacrificing sumtink else of the same value.

Hey hey kh, u tink u culd d/l saiyuki 4 me? Then I gif u cds then u burn into them, its abt 25 epi pls? after full metal I mean, n u can take ur time, im in no hurry. Pls?

I tink I read all the gd fics in fanfiction.net aready, cant seem to find anetink else to do. But I guz it's a gd tink I guz, then I can concentrate on my work..

I really hate me bro, he's such an arrogant git, I asked him very nicely where he learnt to fix the comp n stuff, n he replied I in this arrogant tone 'I learn frm the net ah' then he mumbled sumtink abt me reading or go read myself or sumtink, god I feel like punching him right in the face man, if he wasn fixin the internet, I juz mite.. bloody asshole, so wad if he got gd results, dun need to rub it in u noe. Then I juz found out the other dae that he mite haf gotten 16 4 o levels. Im juz glad I got lower than him. Now, I juz need to get aaa and get into uni.

I found out that my cousin, hu is in uni, got abb. And if u remember my cousins, they are the smart asses. So if she got abb..., I dunno wad will I get man.

She has a really interesting way of thinking the way she describes things, its very different. Like theres one time in the cinema, I was wondering how cum its like so hard to watch a movie if u sit in front, other than the fact that u haf to strain ur neck, and she juz told me, thought out on the spot, that it culd be becus u haf to turn ur head frm side to side to get the whole scene in ur vision range, it's a really interesting way of seeing things. Or mb im juz an idiot.

Btw, I found out frm her that the calculations of pts is speculation, cus one of her frend, got abc culdn get in uni, but another, hu got abd got in, im not sure abt the grades, but its ard there. meaning, sumone hu got lower grades got into uni, but another hu got higher grades didn. She also said that the 2nd or 3rd yr modules r easier to understand than the intro modules frm arts and social science, which is really weird. Sooooo, 1st yr in uni is goin to be tough. She studies a little psychology also, n the text, which is to be studied in 1 semester, is abt as thick as my bio text, which is goin to be studied for 2 yrs.

I guz rmb the other dae y I didn want to pierce my ears in the 1st place. I had this idea that we r born as we r n I saw no need to mutilate ourselves by poking holes in ourselves. But I wuld be kinda hypocritical if I say that I still believe in tt now. I tink its peer pressure that pushed me to go pierce my ears. or it culd me becus I felt like it then...I tink it's the latter. Heh.

Haf a busy wk ahead, mon n tue haf to go hospital, thur, 11.00am to god noes wad time - ice-skating, 6.00 at nite -campfire, staying up thru e nite 4 bball, fri got a-maths claz thing by mr yeo , dinner or lunch. Then I haf to study my notes over again cus I nv listened in class. Sooo, I haf to fin studying in the 1st 3 daes, which is tmr, dae after, and the dae after tmr. Mon, tue, wed.

I like my bag!!

.........

Juz read thru and realized tt its very messy... heh, guz im feeling a bit jumbled up.

Waiting 4 results- 10 daes and counting...

full metal alchemist

2005-03-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

juz watched full metal alchemist, its realli interesting, its abt this guy hu wanted sumtink, and evoked this circle thing on the floor, and the rule is that you cant get sumtink if you dun gif, so the spell thing took his leg, and his bro got horribly mutilated, frm what i can see ah, its a bloody scene.

then it turns to the future, where he and his bro becums this realli famous metal alchemist which dunno do wad also. but basically, the guy was finding a stone, then fight fight fight, and he shows that he is 'corrupted' by the practice and tears off his cloak thing -wonders y does he does that when he can juz take it off- and shows his metal arm and leg, which is how he got his 'gang' [metal] name.

ok, there's your summary kh, i the art is quite nice, but saiyuki and pot nicer though, hehe, but ya, if u wan to d/l can ah, but im not sure if its nice after the 1st epi, kinda hard to understand cus the chi very chim chim, then my sis keep disturbing me also. so ya.

btw, found this colour code thing for html stuff:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/howto/28475.html

a level calculations stuff

2005-03-08T20:43:00.000+08:00

im horrified. yesterdae, my chi teacher was telling us abt the a levels results n stuff, and he was explaining to us abt the calculation of marks and addmission for uni. basically, A is 20 pts, for every lower grade, minus 2.5, so B is 17.5, so on n so forth lowest is E which is 10 pts. u need at least 50 to go in uni, so tts abt bbc, 50 plus gp, highest 8, lowest 2.5 i tink, so avg to go in to u is pass gp and a bbc grade. i tink to go into arts and social sci i need aaa. im dead. basically, highest u can get is 68. plus cca n chi, of which if u get a1/a2 can get abt 1 or 2 bonus pts. so if u add up everything, the top mrk is 75. keep dreaming if i tink i can get this man, i'll be happy i im passing my chem at a level...

n tts not all, then he went on to tell us tt we realli cant afford to retain, cus they changing the syllabus nxt yr, n its quite impossible to catch up, and if u get a grade like ccd, its not ogin to get u anewhere, cus u cant go uni, so u mite be able go to private/foreign unis, which gif u 'diplomas' which the gov doesn recognise, only private companies or sumtink. or u can apply to be a teacher, of which they provide 3yr uni course, but they choose wad u study and do after u fin. or u go poly, which is the worse choice. so basically, i HAVE to do realli realli well or i will juz hang ard doin nutink. which is a bad thing. like duh rite.

so basically, im caught btw a rock and a hard place. im tinking abt goin poly, aneone wan to join me??

complain abt jae

2005-03-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

i c a lot of pple complaining abt the jae thing so i shall complain too!!haha

but ya, i think its partially my fault i culdn get into the thingy, cus, as im like sooo busybody, i took the singpass they sent me n logged in, n since they asked me to change the password, i did, then i was like 'shuld i write it down?... nah' n wad do u noe, i forgot wad i changed it to... so i haf to go to a cc to get a new singpass. then when i came bck, n logged on, the bloody thingy gave me - verification slip, no record found - then i panicked, cus i thot i accidentally submitted a empty thingy the last time i went in, then i called the moe, n there was a queue, like on the fone?? but ya, the executive very nice though. so i waited until after 5.30, cus the system was down frm 5.00 to 5.30, then i went in n made my choice.

at least i didn haf to stay up until 3am to fin it though, i heard sum pple frm mj did tt, the lecturer was like, ' i noe sum of u stayed up until 3am for the jae application, but tt still gives u no reason to sleep in my lecture!'. ya, dumb huh? like, u noe they slept late, let them sleep ah, not like ur lecture very interesting..

then yesterdae, kh, osha and sy came over n watched samurai x on my stupid comp, which wuldn work properly.. luckily my mum's laptop can play it though, so ya, didn take the monitor n threw it on the floor. funny how pple tend to hit the monitor when its the pc's fault..

ya, the ova very sad though, even if im seeing it in bits n pieces, cus it keeps jumping. then they keep pulling out names left n right n i got lost wf hu is the gd guy n hu is the bad one, so i juz watched the faces. i didn noe kenshin has such a sad past.. now i wan to watch the series wahhhhhh.

then pot is taking a long time to d/l... n the ao haven uploaded 143, etc yet, n tezuka's bck!!!! wahahahahaha. hehe. its goin to take ages for it to cum out..

im suppose to do my hw now.. dun feel like it. i go do it later.. hopefully..

piercing

2005-03-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

ok, ive pierced my ears, it didn hurt as much a i thot it wuld, i tink the ant bite i got during cycling - i stopped n stood on an ant hill. stupid, i noe - was worst, i still haf the 'scar' from it. though i think the purpose of piercing my ears is to leave a scar.. shall see how it heals, mb there will be the healed tissue mark thing.. hmmm, interesting..

aneway, ive got bck my results, i got 15, which is quite gd 4 me, considering i didn study as hard as i shuld, dun regret it though, i expected worser marks. so far, the only thing i rmb studying for is am, did 10 exam papers to prepare for Os, n i got a2, i noe, im as surprised as u r.

ok, so my results are:
eng: b4 (sad huh)
combined humanities: b4 (i got a ferrero rocher frm madam hassan, i thot i was in trouble when she passed down the msg tt those hu got less than b3 has to see her...)
bio: a2 ( amazing too )
em: a2
am:a2
geo: a2 (im happy :D)
chem/phy: b3 (sad man, suppose to get a1, even my bro got a2)
chi: b4 ( one grade higher than in june, n i didn even study 4 it! crappy edu system man)

i haf the wk off, juz submitted the choices, i chose mj 1st, sr 2nd, tp 3rd. hopefully i can get into either mj or sr.

i crashed mj yesterdae, indah's frend didn even recognise tt i wasnt frm mj, i hoped it was becus i blend in. but the bio lecturer said tt those hu crashed (she said 'visited' though) haf to go to the office to register. n naturally i didn. i missed the chem lecture though, cus indah was waiting 4 me inside, n i was waiting outside, n apparently a big green figure standing right outside the door wasn conspicious enuf..

now, i hope tt mj can help me get gd results for a levels, i realli wad to get into nus, n study psychology, which i heard is hard to get into. but i muz work hard also ah. - says the gurl hu hasn started on her hw, which is due on mon. - so ya wish me luck.. heh

sucky comp

2005-02-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

u noe wad, i juz realised btw osha n kh's blog, i dun need to sae anetink, so ya, juz go read their blog.

haf i told u my comp sux?

cus it does.

15 15 15

2005-02-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

i hate my comp, this is the 3rd time i typing this already.

aneway 15 for l1r5, either go mj or sr, i c where i goin after i crashed mj on thur n tue

im happy.

my comp sux.

the last msg was the cut off of my super long msg. stupid comp.

results

2005-02-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

my comp sux. it wasn working yesterdae, though i culd sae tt it sumwhat saved me frm a tongue lashing frm my parents i guz, cus i was late again, and the bloody sch called my parents, i mean its like the 4th time only wad.. aneway, now they sae tt i mite not be able to get bck in if i wan to, then i'll probably end up i yj, which is not a place i wan to go.

n ya, results out on mon, which is kinda a gd thing, cus now i haf e wkend to enjoy the last of my freedom. however, i haf to fin a gp summary and a chi compo, plus bio lipids tutorial and chem mass spec, soooo its not goin to be a gd wkend, especially since im goin out wf kh n osha on sat to e-c to cycle. i miss cycling. i tink it has been 2 or 3 yrs since i haf touched a bike..

aneway, my teacher sae tt its better tt u plan where u wan to go b4 u get ur results, so here's my plans, gif opinions k?

ok, if i get more than 20, hopefully i can go into a poly, then i wan to sp, and take either biomedical, or chemical process, which the food technology thing.

less than 20 but more than 15,

hotbars

2005-02-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

decorator for your navigation bar: check it out

anime ones

http://www.animehotbar.com/index2.html

movies, celebrities etc.

http://hotbar-skins.com/skins/

place to download

http://www.hotbar.com/site/Hotbar/BrowserSkins/SkinGallery.htm

nutink else to sae, cept, is it normal 4 me not to be anxious abt my results? i seem to be the only one hu doesn haf nightmare/dreams abt the results.

i hate summary.

boys are assholes

2005-02-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

boy, i haven blogged in ages.. aneway, erm.. i dunno wad to sae.. but ya, im loading pot now, cus apparently winmx isn exactly legal, so my bro deleted it, so no spiderman 2 .. but im getting my fill of pot, so im happy. wanted to load flame of recca too, but it wuld take ages, so i'll finish pot 1st.

n i guz rmb sumtink tt happened on thur/fri, cant rmb, but the student council president, hu i thot was a nice guy, totally degraded harry potter. cus his grp was doin this presentation 4 english wk, and he i doin the comparison btw lotr and hp for the magic section in myth and magic. i noe tt hp is not exactly literature i mean its a children's bk wad!! he was like toking abt broomsticks, and wands, with relation to certain anatomy of the male body, in front of a lecture hall full of innocent jc 1 pupils too!! [ok, mb not tt innocent] and he had the nerve to sae tt he has nutink against hp, bullshit man! u can tell juz by his tone how he reveres lotr, like duh rite? how the bloody hell do u compare a children's bk to a writer lik jrr tolkien, they r of totally different leagues! ya, guys are assholes man.

aneway, i went to yj on fri wf kh and osha, n, no offence kh, but i tink the most memorable part is the journey bck, where we met the woman hu supposingly [ frm osha] didn wear her bra, and found out the 'innocent' side of osha hu didn noe abt testis, no offence meant. but i dun tink im far off though, i thot tt castration is cutting off the penis, turns out its juz e balls, the guy hu told me tt was scandalised n said tt the penis is multi functional, u do -not- cut it off, tt set off my grp and the rest of the class were staring at us, heh, i tink our grp was the only one laughing at the subj..
ya, cus we were discussing the final debate subj ' this house will castrate pedophiles '. should be interesting to listen to.

i haf tons of hw, n i culdn be bothered, blech.

btw, this blogskin nice? im tinkin of changing it

Boy deprived..

2005-02-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

i tink i am boy deprived, im staring at their butts now.. did u noe u culd c a guy's butt better than a gurl's? cus gurls wear skirts and it kinda covers up the butt...

wadever, im supposed to do my chi compo now, but i culd care less, im quitting chingay, dun care anemore, im not goin, im sick and tired of sch, im skipping road race too, hopefully i culd get into another jc cus i dun tink they wuld be happy if i went bck..

haiz, the spiderman is goin to take ages to load, pot is almost done, 4% left, im juz wondering if i shuld keep loading them b4 my parents comes back, but im afraid that the comp will juz hang or sumtink..

i juz rmb theres a chem test tmr, n the dae after, maths n the 2nd part of chem, n i haven studied yet, shuld i juz fail it?

i found this webbie wf very nice DN angel wallpaper :

http://www.yunas-anime-page.de/wallpaper/D.N.Angel/index.htm

go take a look.

i hate jc..

V-dae..

2005-02-14T18:20:00.000+08:00

very lovey dovey todae, and i feel mean 4 taking all those chocolates and not giving anetink.. todae is another good day! u noe y? cus the bitch isnt here!! WAHAHAHAH!! ok im mean. she has eye infection, but she cuming bck tmr. so i better fin my hw todae so i wont stress tmr.. the this wed n thur got tests summore, fri and sat got chingay, aneone wan to go wf me?? but its a rehearsal, so it shuld be boring, im still debating if i shuld go at all, dun feel like it...

i feel like playing badminton.

im trying to download spiderman 2 the movie and pot 116-120.

i guz realised i missed my Hikaru no Go show.. bloody hell

aneway, the comp has been online for 3 days non stop and pot is barely half done and spiderman less than that, im wondering if my comp sux or all downloads take this long.

Drifting

2005-02-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

gah, i dunno wad to sae now. ok, 1st things 1st, i got abt $100 frm ang baos, which is quite bad, but there's sumone frm church hu gave out $10 ang baos, my sis n i was wondering if the person took out a wrong pack of ang baos, n mom said tt she muz be in 'pain' (xin tong) if she did, but it all the better 4 us i guz.

later, i got scolded 4 not helping my father wf sumthing, then she scolded 4 me not wanting to learn how to do sum computer stuff, like y the hell would i wan to learn sumthing i haf no use for? like wad e hell? n every time its me getting scolded, nv my bro or sis, i dun get it, if i dun noe how to do it, n my bro does, and he's home, y e bloody hell r u asking me?? i dunno then i dunno ah, scold me 4 wad?!? every single time, ok, every single time, my bro is the comp genius and they keep asking me, then I get scolded 4 not knowing? wtf!!! i dun get them, n i swear every time i get scolded its either my bro or my father's fault, my curse is men, they r totally irresponsible, insensitive, irritatingly insistent, idiotic, assholic, stupid, are a defect of impurity and a shameful infection of failure to the female kind.

on a lighter note, i juz found out that there's a punching bag avaliable at $1 at tampines, so now i could go sumwhere to punch out my frustration instead of bottling it up, then mb i wouldnt cry at every scolding session. i get this temptation to kill myself every time i get scolded, i nv understand y, u can hit and beat me but u can hurt me more by scolding me, psychological hurt. i rmb there's one time i locked myself in my rm and fell asleep, then my mom woke me up wf a bucket of water, she asked me y i didn open the door, n i said tt i was asleep, she said i was lying, when i was telling the truth, then she started scolding me again, it wasn even my bloody fault! it was sis k? she pissed me off. i was abt 8 or 9. so i locked myself in. then i realised i was beaten b4 e water dump, apparently i slept through it n she was pissed off, sadistic bitch.

the gd news, they will be gone 4 9 daes, returning nxt sun. bad news, there's sch starting mon. im juz wishing that i culd get my results soon, then i culd get more settled.

went out wf e usual gang again todae, then they left 4 the movie constantine n i went home. im still mourning the fact that sy didn get her hp frm the arcade, one square!! its such a pity.. then kh got 79 combos ( frm wad i rmb) 4 e drum thing, which is super kool, n sy got over a hundred 4 e kiddies one, kh didn do well on tt one, e 'adults' one is better 4 her i guz, i prefer e adult one aneway, e songs nicer, then there's no blasting guns beside the adult drums set.

i haf tons of hw, and i hate jc. Junior College SUCK!

Drifting
by Kit McCallum
I sometimes find I'm drifting

Through this life without effect;

I often wonder if I'm truly

Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,

To try to understand,

The many trials that I have known,

The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,

So confident and strong;

Yet when I am alone, I question

Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,

To analyze and guess,

To scrutinize, investigate

My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be

Some meaning to this life,

Some way to make a difference,

Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?

Some agenda to be found?

A greater purpose waiting

If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,

Always slightly out of sight;

A hazy vision out of reach,

Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity

To what awaits me there,

And yet this weak illusion

Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,

To focus through the haze,

Just serves to add more questions,

Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,

To understand it all,

For can we ever truly know

Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,

Just adds upon the next,

But in the end, will I find truth ...

Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder

Than it has to be sometimes,

But will my searching bring to me

My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,

And confused as I feel now,

While questions bring no solitude,

To this, my wrinkled brow.

CNY eve.

2005-02-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

i missed sch todae, overslept, so i went to tkg early. i spent 1/2 hr waiting 4 31, cus i wanted to go thru tt route again, u noe, cus i missed the familiar route, but it took too long, so i took 33 instead. aneway, the sch didn change much, a few more fences, rearranging of chairs, extended general office, a cafe. i juz realised how small my jc canteen is.. after tt, me n fatin shook off rafizah, then we ate in kfc n toked wf osha n indah while waiting 4 kh n peici to fin their shopping. then we walked ard pp to do a little shopping n kh bought her earphone.

after tt i had a violent coughing fit on the way to the lib wf osha n fatin cus everyone else had to go 4 their reunion dinner but me, cus mine starts at 6.30. we tried to study, then gave up n went to bedok cus i wanted to go to comics connection to kill time, n i ended up buying things...

then we went home n i read my new comic, then we had e dinner, got my jewellery, red packet, now im here typing my dae out. it starts wf: i missed sch todae.

im a bit bored wf this, mb i shuld gif up blogging...

a discovery

2005-02-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

4 the 1st time ever, im late for sch, i tink its a record, hopefully a one time offence won't realli matter, like will they put it one official record or sumtink? aneone noes? i realli hope not, its not even my fault man, i was sick k? stupid teacher didn even ask 4 an excuse, asshole.

aneway, rmb the bitch i mentioned sumtime ago? turns out im not the only one hu doesn like her, even those she usually hangout with were glad that she didn come todae. if im lucky, i wont c her until nxt wk, shuld destress me a bit. bloody bitch. i tink she offended a lot of pple. one time there was this class banner making thing and sumone went off early cus theres nutink to do, she juz said "bye" realli sweetly, then said "bitch" under her breath after she's gone, i sae pot calling the kettle black man, bloody childish assholic bitch. im so glad im not hanging ard her anemore.

aneway, we juz fin lipids todae in one lecture, n i fell asleep. im so dead man. then i juz realised that i juz spent more than $20 on juz notes. then nxt wk is test wk, chem and maths, im juz lucky theres no bio tests.

this is for my benefit and a closure: to the bitch,

Goodbye
by Rosebud

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye

You used to be my friend

But I never felt I really was yours

So maybe this is the end.

I'm different from you, all of you

Each other we've never understood

I hope that if I do tell you goodbye

That it won't be for good.

Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad

And you don't even care

I don't know why, I just want to cry

And someday I won't be there.

The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm

They're only made of pen

But once they are blood that turns brown like mud

They'll be there again and again.

If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too

But that doesn't really matter

Although when I hurt I feel like dirt

And my spirit's bruised and battered.

I do not know why it has to be so

I really wish it did not

But the way this has been going

it is basically shot.

You don't need me and we don't need we

And that's how I think I know why

These words are the ones I have to speak-

I liked you, but goodbye.

bye bitch

im i boring?

2005-02-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

i skipped e chingay thing todae, was goddamn tired man, dunno y also, i doubt i can be as tired as sy, but still. then we were suppose to go to mac to study wf kh, osha n indah. i was late, 4 abt 1/2 hr sorry kh!! then i found out indah was not goin, then osha was suppose to meet us at mac, said tt she would inform me n kh if she not coming, n i was like betting wf kh tt she wouldn come. so now i owe kh $1 cus i had faith in osha. i tink i put it in the wrong place, no? hehe, no offence k? i noe she's tired, noe im, n she's the one running ard 24/7. cant c how she's functioning, at least she doesn haf much hw, so its ok. i guz.

so its juz kh n me, we ate lunch then tried to do sum hw, wasn v. successful though, we only fin a bit of maths q. but kh was determined, so she cleared a bit of work. now, i tink i haf to spend my new yr eve staying up to do my hw... blech...

btw, u noe wad? my bro got this offer to go to shanghai for sum work thing, n its only 4 those in the top 3, so its a acheivement. plus he's goin to be gone 4 6 wks! so tts a bonus, though i hope the comp doesn crash during this time, otherwise i mite juz fly there to drag him back to fix it..

aneway, after we tried to do sum work but ended up tokin half e time, i went to my aunt's hse 4 dinner, which is in the same blk as kh, so after dinner we decided to go her hse to watch the samurai x ova. but turns out we only haf an hr, n the show was 2hr, so i watched a hikaru no go one instead (grown up hikaru is damn cute!!, ya i noe, im sick, but the drawing is realli nice, and the show was sad too). i was watching it wf my sis, hu didn wan to go wf my parents to go shop, but she got bored halfway and was figeting half way thru, irritating man, then she keeps copyin wad they were doin in the anime. like monkey. n she's born in the yr of the monkey.

so now i feel bad for watching my show at kh's hse n juz throwing her to e side, feels like a movie stop u noe, so i feel bad. but i still wan to watch samurai x though, it looks nice, kenshin's teacher looks as young as b4..

bored yet?

poem and pink mania..

2005-02-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

i seem to be obsessed with poem nowadays, as you can see by the column beside e sanzo pic, i cant make it look nice if i posted it, so it goes there. tell me if its nice.

aneway, life goes on as usual, which is v. boring.. i decided to keep at guitar, cus theres like only 2 sessions left aneway, makes no sense to quit now. lessons getting harder, im getting tirer, and o's results coming soon. wad a nice mth.

aneway, i juz got my new cloths yesterday. a pink skirt, my black prom top 4 1st dae. black skirt/pants, pink flowy transparent top 4 2nd dae. u c the trend? haha, aneway, i wanted to wear all black for 2nd dae, wf this silver belt, but my mom changed her mind. so, its pink/black theme 4 me. at least i got a long sleeved shirt now, even if its pink and has a collar.. i hate pink.