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Friday, September 30, 2005

i juz realised that saiyuki n harry potter have a common plot. u noe when Dumbledore froze Harry to 'protect' him? i juz realised the same thing happened in Saiyuki also, where Koumyo, Kouryo's teacher (now called Sanzo) froze him to protect him frm demons. talk abt cliche.. i fail to c how freezing them help to protect them..

n yes. i noe. supposed to be studyin. but wth..

`Name
x 4:43 PM


Friday, September 23, 2005

"He took me out of the darkness and showed me a world much brighter then the Sun..." -Goku

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i'm beginning to think that i have friends only because of Osha.. i'm not getting along with my classmates.. i mean, i talk to them and all but they aren't like kh or sy or any of my other friends. i think i get along better with tiff then with them, and i don't even like tiff much.

i tink i gave them the wrong impression.

come to think of it, i met all my friends thru Osha....kh, sy, fatin, farah. i still remember running down the corridor and Osha asked farah if she supported Harry/Hermione or Harry/Ginny. haha, n i won, but she said that Karfu took my stand just to spite her, so not counted. haha.

im not happy in this school. i don't know why. is it just me? i think so. i can't seem to talk to anyone in the class, and feel constantly rejected. i don't think they did it on purpose, but still.. i hope this isn't going to be happening every time i go somewhere new..

i hate this school. i hate the uniform, the food, the teachers, the subjects, the people. i hate being unadaptable. am i so easy to ignore? so i talk softly? fuck. u can't expect me to shout out whenever i want to join in. frankly, i don't know why am i so bothered, i don't talk much in the first place. but i think i can guess.. i don't volunteer information. Osha, and my this other classmate ask my opinion, so i feel better hanging with them, at least they include me. the rest of my class however seem to stick their opinion whenever and whatever, its like they talk when its their turn. u can see the topic going round the table, each giving their opinion or experience. i don't do that, probably cus whenever i tried they just ignored it or dismissed it. is it cus i talk too softly or wadever i talk about is difficult to continue? i need a course on how to carry a conversation. maybe fatin can teach me..

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"Come and go. Leave your imprint on nothing and nothing will leave its imprint on you. I do not need anyone; I do not want anyone to need me. I am not a lifeline. I disavow all responsibility to anyone or anything. Don't turn to me for help. Don't turn to me for support. I help no one but myself. I have my own wars to wage.

Get involved in nothing, get attached to nothing, and you'll be fine.." -Genjo Sanzo

Can I be this way?

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x 5:09 PM


Tuesday, September 20, 2005

eom done, wr done, only InR and OP now.. finally man. haiz.. i hate the bio teacher hu was preggy. totally boring, and standard totally high, now she told us tt the paper is very very difficult, so better study hard. i hope she is bluffing, i m relying on bio 4 a pass. maths need to study vectors, trigo and diff. teacher sae impt. but since im skipping trigo and apgp, i'll study hard 4 binomial, 3D and graph. ya.. shuld be ok.. i hope............

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x 6:54 PM


Friday, September 16, 2005

suppose to be doin wr now, its finishing soon, juz need sum touching uo, then er hafta do the op n inr draft BY NEXT WK. smart no? specially when promos is like the wk after nxt.

a piece of gd news. of which i think e mj pple will turn green wf envy. haha, turns out propos is 50%, and the other half is frm various scattered test n ca. i tink my teacher was very very leinent and gave us quite high marks 4 the orals presentations. n i jux realised the sch's 'devious' scheme of making us more used to ops by incorporating them into lessons. smart them. and nxt yr, 4 e new batch, GP will be = to PW. so the 2nd yr will be more gp taking over pw. n where was i.. oh ya, e gd news, turns out i need 37 to pass my maths. n my teacher sae tt e paper will be easy. if only to make sure we promote. oh. n 87 to get A. a tad impossible, but i shall try. i shall not study chem n do maths 4 the whole wk nxt wk. oh god. 1 wk. 1 wk. 1 wk. fuck. tts like 7 daes. fuck. oh god.. n i haven started studying yet!!! ohgodohgodohgod. shit. SHIT. n i haf pw, n wr, n bio, n chem, n tuts, and. oh god. i had better fin my wr by todae and OH SHIT bio SPA nxt wk. SHIT. AHHHHHHHHHH. shit shit shit. ok. ok. tuts tmr, maths formula list tmr. spa sun. maths practice. ok. shall do WR now. shit.

[edit] i hate my pw mates. they dun do their wrk and my STUPID leader, keeps pushing the duties i asked him to do nicely to my other grp mates. like fuck him ah. dun haf phy text go lib then. shit him. then the HIM is like argggg. so far the only one hu does her work is my wr partner. god. i hate pw. if i dun get an A 4 this im goin to strangle sumone. preferably my irresponsible leader. i hate boys. specially pathetic ones hu shrink their duties. grrrrr.

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x 9:18 PM


Sunday, September 11, 2005

tons of hw, im so screwed. promos ard the corner, im so dead. freak. i cant seem to be able to concentrate. i dun understand it. i haf 2 wks left b4 promos, n i haven started revising. i dun understand trigo, i cant rmb formulas. i dun haf the time to do practise papers. i fail to c how m i goin to pass this yr. fuck.

i nv believed trying to study when i cant concentrate. i mean, wads the point rite? if u spend the time and nutink gets into ur head. but now im beginning to think tt i mite hafta, cus i cant seem to get anetink done. suppose to do past maths tut. cant even fin the practice papers. suppose to revise bio LAST wk. didn even fin covering enzymes. supposed to fin chem revision this wk. tons of Q left frm practice papers. GP paper due last thur. still not done. FUCK. n i need a new vocab, cant seem to be able to do MJ's paper. to the meridians out there, gd luck, n im nv gladder to be kicked out of there, even if im not faring much better here..

i wanna run, get away frm here. i wanna hide, i don't wan to face reality, the 'real' world. i wanna juz jump off a building. what m i here 4 aneway, i c no purpose 4 me living. im useless. a waste of space. well. actually, i dun know what is the world 4, a plaything 4 God? what do we live for? a place in heaven?

i need to stop reading fanfiction. its screwing wf my brain.

mb i shuld go be a social worker. mb i can find my life helping others. mb.. if im not so impatient tt i will prob convince the person to kill him or her self first. not a teacher either. scientist? no creativity. doctor? i hate precision. psychologist? mb.. but NUS dun seem to be proficient in it. i dun noe where to go after this. seriously.

`Name
x 6:28 PM