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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

new skin, nice nice??? i didn realli like the position of the tb but i cant seem to be able to take it out, haizz... nvm, its still nice though.

went to tekong todae, found out abt how the ns pple live. saw a lot of cute guys, also saw mushy food which my frends said r nice, didn try meself so i dunno.

was reminising abt tkg this morning. i miss the uniform, my frends, the food, the free times, my frends, the teachers, cca, the music(u noe i went frm a music sch to an art sch?), the np rm, the air, scenery, girls(not like tt), jannah, simone, maggy, nat, farah, diyana, ema, nic, lily, irah, sheena, yun qi, soo ting, wendy, fatin to state a few, hell, i even miss lx.

haiz.. im a total outcast in sr, i mingle wf everyone, but no one 'keeps' me, there was a grp wk thing todae n i got stuck wf the other outcast in my class. a guy, n im missing a member, n i haf to do the speech on mon.

i miss my frends, my sec sch daes, the long daes in which we do nutink. i miss the air we breathed, the greenery. i dread goin to sch everydae, i haf no frends, nutink to look forward to. im lagging behind my work, i haf 3 tests nxt wk which i haven studied 4, and the bloody pi. i haf pe tmr, n a long dae, the wkend is coming but all i c is work. i noe im lazy, but tt nv seemed to drag me down b4, i dun realli noe wads wrong, but i miss my frends. it hurts to look ard me n see no one i noe, i hang wf my classmates but i feel so far away. i feel extra, left out, even when they try to tok to me. i feel sick all the time, n i only feel better when i come hme. the net seems to be my only cure.

i hate sr. i seriously hate it. frm the field to the pple. i want my sec sch, i wuldn mind studying if i had my frends, hu i only c once a wk. i feel myself when im wf them, even if we r doin nutink. i realli hope we wuldn drift apart, i cant stand it. ive cursed more times todae then in my last 4 yrs. its a bad dae.

im so emotional todae, n im not even half as stressed as say soon ying or nat.

I smile because it hides the pain; I laugh because it makes me forget about everything that's happened; I live my life pretending that everything's okay... Even though it isn't.

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