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Monday, February 28, 2005

u noe wad, i juz realised btw osha n kh's blog, i dun need to sae anetink, so ya, juz go read their blog.

haf i told u my comp sux?

cus it does.

`Name
x 10:55 PM

i hate my comp, this is the 3rd time i typing this already.

aneway 15 for l1r5, either go mj or sr, i c where i goin after i crashed mj on thur n tue

im happy.

my comp sux.

the last msg was the cut off of my super long msg. stupid comp.

`Name
x 10:26 PM


Friday, February 25, 2005

my comp sux. it wasn working yesterdae, though i culd sae tt it sumwhat saved me frm a tongue lashing frm my parents i guz, cus i was late again, and the bloody sch called my parents, i mean its like the 4th time only wad.. aneway, now they sae tt i mite not be able to get bck in if i wan to, then i'll probably end up i yj, which is not a place i wan to go.

n ya, results out on mon, which is kinda a gd thing, cus now i haf e wkend to enjoy the last of my freedom. however, i haf to fin a gp summary and a chi compo, plus bio lipids tutorial and chem mass spec, soooo its not goin to be a gd wkend, especially since im goin out wf kh n osha on sat to e-c to cycle. i miss cycling. i tink it has been 2 or 3 yrs since i haf touched a bike..

aneway, my teacher sae tt its better tt u plan where u wan to go b4 u get ur results, so here's my plans, gif opinions k?

ok, if i get more than 20, hopefully i can go into a poly, then i wan to sp, and take either biomedical, or chemical process, which the food technology thing.

less than 20 but more than 15,

`Name
x 4:40 PM


Tuesday, February 22, 2005

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nutink else to sae, cept, is it normal 4 me not to be anxious abt my results? i seem to be the only one hu doesn haf nightmare/dreams abt the results.

i hate summary.

`Name
x 8:56 PM


Sunday, February 20, 2005

boy, i haven blogged in ages.. aneway, erm.. i dunno wad to sae.. but ya, im loading pot now, cus apparently winmx isn exactly legal, so my bro deleted it, so no spiderman 2 .. but im getting my fill of pot, so im happy. wanted to load flame of recca too, but it wuld take ages, so i'll finish pot 1st.

n i guz rmb sumtink tt happened on thur/fri, cant rmb, but the student council president, hu i thot was a nice guy, totally degraded harry potter. cus his grp was doin this presentation 4 english wk, and he i doin the comparison btw lotr and hp for the magic section in myth and magic. i noe tt hp is not exactly literature i mean its a children's bk wad!! he was like toking abt broomsticks, and wands, with relation to certain anatomy of the male body, in front of a lecture hall full of innocent jc 1 pupils too!! [ok, mb not tt innocent] and he had the nerve to sae tt he has nutink against hp, bullshit man! u can tell juz by his tone how he reveres lotr, like duh rite? how the bloody hell do u compare a children's bk to a writer lik jrr tolkien, they r of totally different leagues! ya, guys are assholes man.

aneway, i went to yj on fri wf kh and osha, n, no offence kh, but i tink the most memorable part is the journey bck, where we met the woman hu supposingly [ frm osha] didn wear her bra, and found out the 'innocent' side of osha hu didn noe abt testis, no offence meant. but i dun tink im far off though, i thot tt castration is cutting off the penis, turns out its juz e balls, the guy hu told me tt was scandalised n said tt the penis is multi functional, u do -not- cut it off, tt set off my grp and the rest of the class were staring at us, heh, i tink our grp was the only one laughing at the subj..
ya, cus we were discussing the final debate subj ' this house will castrate pedophiles '. should be interesting to listen to.

i haf tons of hw, n i culdn be bothered, blech.

btw, this blogskin nice? im tinkin of changing it

`Name
x 9:50 PM


Tuesday, February 15, 2005

i tink i am boy deprived, im staring at their butts now.. did u noe u culd c a guy's butt better than a gurl's? cus gurls wear skirts and it kinda covers up the butt...

wadever, im supposed to do my chi compo now, but i culd care less, im quitting chingay, dun care anemore, im not goin, im sick and tired of sch, im skipping road race too, hopefully i culd get into another jc cus i dun tink they wuld be happy if i went bck..

haiz, the spiderman is goin to take ages to load, pot is almost done, 4% left, im juz wondering if i shuld keep loading them b4 my parents comes back, but im afraid that the comp will juz hang or sumtink..

i juz rmb theres a chem test tmr, n the dae after, maths n the 2nd part of chem, n i haven studied yet, shuld i juz fail it?

i found this webbie wf very nice DN angel wallpaper :

http://www.yunas-anime-page.de/wallpaper/D.N.Angel/index.htm

go take a look.

i hate jc..

`Name
x 8:52 PM


Monday, February 14, 2005

very lovey dovey todae, and i feel mean 4 taking all those chocolates and not giving anetink.. todae is another good day! u noe y? cus the bitch isnt here!! WAHAHAHAH!! ok im mean. she has eye infection, but she cuming bck tmr. so i better fin my hw todae so i wont stress tmr.. the this wed n thur got tests summore, fri and sat got chingay, aneone wan to go wf me?? but its a rehearsal, so it shuld be boring, im still debating if i shuld go at all, dun feel like it...

i feel like playing badminton.

im trying to download spiderman 2 the movie and pot 116-120.

i guz realised i missed my Hikaru no Go show.. bloody hell

aneway, the comp has been online for 3 days non stop and pot is barely half done and spiderman less than that, im wondering if my comp sux or all downloads take this long.

`Name
x 6:20 PM


Saturday, February 12, 2005

gah, i dunno wad to sae now. ok, 1st things 1st, i got abt $100 frm ang baos, which is quite bad, but there's sumone frm church hu gave out $10 ang baos, my sis n i was wondering if the person took out a wrong pack of ang baos, n mom said tt she muz be in 'pain' (xin tong) if she did, but it all the better 4 us i guz.

later, i got scolded 4 not helping my father wf sumthing, then she scolded 4 me not wanting to learn how to do sum computer stuff, like y the hell would i wan to learn sumthing i haf no use for? like wad e hell? n every time its me getting scolded, nv my bro or sis, i dun get it, if i dun noe how to do it, n my bro does, and he's home, y e bloody hell r u asking me?? i dunno then i dunno ah, scold me 4 wad?!? every single time, ok, every single time, my bro is the comp genius and they keep asking me, then I get scolded 4 not knowing? wtf!!! i dun get them, n i swear every time i get scolded its either my bro or my father's fault, my curse is men, they r totally irresponsible, insensitive, irritatingly insistent, idiotic, assholic, stupid, are a defect of impurity and a shameful infection of failure to the female kind.

on a lighter note, i juz found out that there's a punching bag avaliable at $1 at tampines, so now i could go sumwhere to punch out my frustration instead of bottling it up, then mb i wouldnt cry at every scolding session. i get this temptation to kill myself every time i get scolded, i nv understand y, u can hit and beat me but u can hurt me more by scolding me, psychological hurt. i rmb there's one time i locked myself in my rm and fell asleep, then my mom woke me up wf a bucket of water, she asked me y i didn open the door, n i said tt i was asleep, she said i was lying, when i was telling the truth, then she started scolding me again, it wasn even my bloody fault! it was sis k? she pissed me off. i was abt 8 or 9. so i locked myself in. then i realised i was beaten b4 e water dump, apparently i slept through it n she was pissed off, sadistic bitch.

the gd news, they will be gone 4 9 daes, returning nxt sun. bad news, there's sch starting mon. im juz wishing that i culd get my results soon, then i culd get more settled.

went out wf e usual gang again todae, then they left 4 the movie constantine n i went home. im still mourning the fact that sy didn get her hp frm the arcade, one square!! its such a pity.. then kh got 79 combos ( frm wad i rmb) 4 e drum thing, which is super kool, n sy got over a hundred 4 e kiddies one, kh didn do well on tt one, e 'adults' one is better 4 her i guz, i prefer e adult one aneway, e songs nicer, then there's no blasting guns beside the adult drums set.

i haf tons of hw, and i hate jc. Junior College SUCK!




Drifting
by Kit McCallum
I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

`Name
x 8:59 PM


Tuesday, February 08, 2005

i missed sch todae, overslept, so i went to tkg early. i spent 1/2 hr waiting 4 31, cus i wanted to go thru tt route again, u noe, cus i missed the familiar route, but it took too long, so i took 33 instead. aneway, the sch didn change much, a few more fences, rearranging of chairs, extended general office, a cafe. i juz realised how small my jc canteen is.. after tt, me n fatin shook off rafizah, then we ate in kfc n toked wf osha n indah while waiting 4 kh n peici to fin their shopping. then we walked ard pp to do a little shopping n kh bought her earphone.

after tt i had a violent coughing fit on the way to the lib wf osha n fatin cus everyone else had to go 4 their reunion dinner but me, cus mine starts at 6.30. we tried to study, then gave up n went to bedok cus i wanted to go to comics connection to kill time, n i ended up buying things...

then we went home n i read my new comic, then we had e dinner, got my jewellery, red packet, now im here typing my dae out. it starts wf: i missed sch todae.

im a bit bored wf this, mb i shuld gif up blogging...

`Name
x 11:41 PM


Monday, February 07, 2005

4 the 1st time ever, im late for sch, i tink its a record, hopefully a one time offence won't realli matter, like will they put it one official record or sumtink? aneone noes? i realli hope not, its not even my fault man, i was sick k? stupid teacher didn even ask 4 an excuse, asshole.

aneway, rmb the bitch i mentioned sumtime ago? turns out im not the only one hu doesn like her, even those she usually hangout with were glad that she didn come todae. if im lucky, i wont c her until nxt wk, shuld destress me a bit. bloody bitch. i tink she offended a lot of pple. one time there was this class banner making thing and sumone went off early cus theres nutink to do, she juz said "bye" realli sweetly, then said "bitch" under her breath after she's gone, i sae pot calling the kettle black man, bloody childish assholic bitch. im so glad im not hanging ard her anemore.

aneway, we juz fin lipids todae in one lecture, n i fell asleep. im so dead man. then i juz realised that i juz spent more than $20 on juz notes. then nxt wk is test wk, chem and maths, im juz lucky theres no bio tests.

this is for my benefit and a closure: to the bitch,


Goodbye
by Rosebud

Well maybe now I should just say goodbye
You used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.
I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even care
I don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered.
I do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been going
it is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-
I liked you, but goodbye.
bye bitch

`Name
x 10:14 PM


Saturday, February 05, 2005

i skipped e chingay thing todae, was goddamn tired man, dunno y also, i doubt i can be as tired as sy, but still. then we were suppose to go to mac to study wf kh, osha n indah. i was late, 4 abt 1/2 hr sorry kh!! then i found out indah was not goin, then osha was suppose to meet us at mac, said tt she would inform me n kh if she not coming, n i was like betting wf kh tt she wouldn come. so now i owe kh $1 cus i had faith in osha. i tink i put it in the wrong place, no? hehe, no offence k? i noe she's tired, noe im, n she's the one running ard 24/7. cant c how she's functioning, at least she doesn haf much hw, so its ok. i guz.

so its juz kh n me, we ate lunch then tried to do sum hw, wasn v. successful though, we only fin a bit of maths q. but kh was determined, so she cleared a bit of work. now, i tink i haf to spend my new yr eve staying up to do my hw... blech...

btw, u noe wad? my bro got this offer to go to shanghai for sum work thing, n its only 4 those in the top 3, so its a acheivement. plus he's goin to be gone 4 6 wks! so tts a bonus, though i hope the comp doesn crash during this time, otherwise i mite juz fly there to drag him back to fix it..

aneway, after we tried to do sum work but ended up tokin half e time, i went to my aunt's hse 4 dinner, which is in the same blk as kh, so after dinner we decided to go her hse to watch the samurai x ova. but turns out we only haf an hr, n the show was 2hr, so i watched a hikaru no go one instead (grown up hikaru is damn cute!!, ya i noe, im sick, but the drawing is realli nice, and the show was sad too). i was watching it wf my sis, hu didn wan to go wf my parents to go shop, but she got bored halfway and was figeting half way thru, irritating man, then she keeps copyin wad they were doin in the anime. like monkey. n she's born in the yr of the monkey.

so now i feel bad for watching my show at kh's hse n juz throwing her to e side, feels like a movie stop u noe, so i feel bad. but i still wan to watch samurai x though, it looks nice, kenshin's teacher looks as young as b4..

bored yet?

`Name
x 11:44 PM


Friday, February 04, 2005

i seem to be obsessed with poem nowadays, as you can see by the column beside e sanzo pic, i cant make it look nice if i posted it, so it goes there. tell me if its nice.

aneway, life goes on as usual, which is v. boring.. i decided to keep at guitar, cus theres like only 2 sessions left aneway, makes no sense to quit now. lessons getting harder, im getting tirer, and o's results coming soon. wad a nice mth.

aneway, i juz got my new cloths yesterday. a pink skirt, my black prom top 4 1st dae. black skirt/pants, pink flowy transparent top 4 2nd dae. u c the trend? haha, aneway, i wanted to wear all black for 2nd dae, wf this silver belt, but my mom changed her mind. so, its pink/black theme 4 me. at least i got a long sleeved shirt now, even if its pink and has a collar.. i hate pink.

`Name
x 8:16 PM


Wednesday, February 02, 2005

my fingers hurt, guitar sux. im giving up guitar, its torture i tell u. painnnn..

n u noe e chem spring test? i got i bck todae a got 4/10. nice huh? i was lowest in class, so now e teacher would probably keep an eye on me. then the gp lecture was abt debates, and we haf to learn how to research and stuff. weird man.

now my mom noes tt im spending tons of time on e comp, and is restricting me now.. crappy..

blah, nutink else to sae, tmr got pe, so cursing n swearing while complaining.. blah blah blah.

sch sux.

`Name
x 8:16 PM